After reading my deepest secrets, what do you think of me?

I read naruto and dragonball z erotic fanfics becauss the romance seems more real and relatable when the characters have sex

Other than porn the only thing that turns me on is imagining having sex with my ex boyfriend who dissed me

I'm afraid people won't like me because Im not funny

Sometimes Im funny but when I try to be funny I get carried away and act lame

I know Im not lit so I dont even bother trying to be the fun friend. Thus I feel like people see me as too mature to have fun with when I secretly suppress my fun side because of the mature reputation I have created which Im afraid of stepping out of

I think guys are great but great guys never are interested in me and even scare me a little because of how hard they judge so I avoid dating

I clean up often but usually after I clean up I mess up again and so I perpetually live in a home thats kind of clean, not filthy or ridden with germs but messy

I pace in circles to think better sometimes but it actually works

I secretly have a fantasy about running into my ex while being in the arms of a handsome, tall, loving new boyfriend and ignoring him and making him cry from heartbreak but I also dont want to hurt him and know I would never actually want to run into him in real life for ANY reason because I would probably faint and I would rather die than hurt him

My cat likes to kneed the blankets for some reason and even though I suspect that he is doing something of a sexual nature when its late at night I let him climb on my back and kneed the blankets over top of me because it feels like a back massage

I haven't shaved in months due to to being single

I know I can get a boyfriend easily because I know I look good but I still feel that it will inevitably end badly no matter what I do because nobody will ever like me enough to stay so I just coach myself on being comfortable with breaking up. But the fear of breaking up makes me distance myself from ever dating in the first place
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Most Helpful Guys

  • You seem really sweet!

    Don't ever be ashamed of what gets you off, as long as you aren't hurting anyone (against their will).

    If you want to be funny, you've got to be able to take risks. Sometimes jokes just aren't going to land, and that's fine. Most professional comedians talk about bombing, even after they're famous, and that's because even they need to workshop things.

    Nobody is a caricature, everyone, outside of bad fictional characters, is multi-faceted to some degree. I hope you learn to be yourself, and be comfortable being yourself someday. Even if it puts your friends off that you're not always the mature, responsible 'friend-mom" they think of, that doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. You might just need better friends.

    I don't think your cat is trying to molest you. xD That's pretty standard cat-behavior.

    Self-doubt and loathing is an almost universal part of the human experience. I think there's plenty to like about you, and I hope you can see that one day. If you actually want a SO, I'm sure you'll find plenty, and I'm willing to bet you'll keep at least one of them in the process. If you don't, that's perfectly fine too.

  • Okay I don't know if your gonna see this but I can like totally relate to everything you said about the fanfics and the thinking about your ex stuff I thought that was just me tbh and I’m not popular amongst my friends as well I’m not the favorite of the group so I understand where your coming from if u wanna talk about it tho let me kno by dming me or relplying if I see this ofc

Most Helpful Girls

  • I am not sure what the hell I just read. Honest opinion from a mature adult. I think you have low self esteem and generalized anxiety disorder. I think all the psychological crap you are rationalizing is actually causing you great harm. If you believe that any relationship with a male is going to fail it likely will. Hope you will seek some help to help you learn the skills you need to be a successful person.

  • I think you're just human. We all have flaws and parts of us that we aren't fond of. Parts of us that we hide and stuff we think about which would be considered strange if said in public. But we all have strange thoughts sometimes. Therefore I think you're probably a lovely person.

    • Wow thank you. I braced myself to be judged harshly I didn't expect that it was normal. Thanks a lot

  • reading hentai isn't that bad. Being not funny isn't a bad thing.. I didn't read your previous stories. Just believe yourself that you'll get a new boyfriend

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  • Dw. You’re good.

  • You could use more self discipline so you can sort your feelings out.
    Your cat is not sexual. You are mom.
    You are a perfect candidate for an authentic Friends With Benefits. That kind of relationship can fix things better than a therapist.

  • I read ur secrets. U r worthy of love

  • You sound like a lot of girls, maybe most of them.

  • You sound fine to me. Nothing that would be off. Different but different is good in my eyes

  • Prostitute that not ready to launched in 5he market

  • Can we sext with role play

  • we all are similar, evil mind.

  • you're a fujoshi, like me