Am I gay, confused about my sexuality?

[Meisner]

Hello everyone. I want to share my story and how I feel. First I want to say that in reality I am a manly man and no one would have guessed that I felt that way. As a child, I liked girls very much, I tried to find a serious girl, but I experienced a lot of rejections from them and everything affected me. I had only one girlfriend, we lived and were together for several years, I was happy with her, she was my 1st and only, but she left me for another man.. I want to tell you that when I was teen (15 years old) I had a lot of women's things and clothes around me, because I was only with my mother and sister. And at the age of 15 I secretly tried to put on my sister's thongs and I liked it. With the time started watching porn and watching the girls have fun when they were.. and when they make blowjobs, I began to think about what they are feeling and I wanted to be like them. Well, I've had thoughts about men and penises, but I've done nothing. I am currently 29, 4 years have passed since my ex left me. I was totally devastated and shattered, but these thoughts came back in me and I want to explain how I feel and if someone can help with advice or something.. I still look at women, I like them and I think they are much better looking than men, but kind of I'm not attracted sexually, but I just appreciate their beauty and I want to be like them, Men on the other hand attract me a lot, especially because of their penises and bodies and the fact that I want to be like a girl and do what they they do.. So I feel that even when I'm on the street, I look at women and I just want to be like them, nothing else.. On the one hand I want to be more feminine and be able to be like a girl and be with men, but on the other hand I don't want to be gay. I've always wanted to find true love, to start a family and I don't know what to do and think.

[Markm3212]

i would say that you are a mix of, Gay, Bi and Trans/cross dresser. but probably a gay cross dresser.

its cool and i get it, you like to wear girls cloths and feel all feminine, there is a feeling you get when dressed like that. but the fact that you do not look at ladies with sexual desire and you look at guys with sexual desire, would indicate that your gay.

have you been to any gay bars/clubs? you do find that some guys, like there partners to be feminine and to be the submissive. i would suggest that you visit a local pub or club and see what happens. you dont have to go looking for a man, but just see what happens and have an open mind

[Meisner]

Thank you for your good answer!

[AviatorTom]

I don't think you're gay. I think you're still recovering from the breakup with your ex, and are afraid of getting involved again... because you might get hurt again. We all face that... but the possibility of a good relationship outweighs the possibility of getting hurt... so put yourself out there, go on some dates with women. And enjoy life!

[Meisner]

Thank you!

[queenkilldozer]

There is nothing wrong with experimenting and questioning your sexuality. There's also nothing wrong whatsoever with being gay or bisexual or straight. I think people stress out too much about labels and what people call them instead of what they want and how they feel. The only question that I would ask you is do you feel as though you are a woman trapped in a man's body or do you just want to be the feminine / submissive partner?

[Meisner]

Thank you for your amazing answer, sweetie. I think I want to be the feminine/submissive partner..

[ItsMaddy]

"Men on the other hand attract me a lot, especially because of their penises and bodies and the fact that I want to be like a girl and do what they they do.. I look at women and I just want to be like them, nothing else.. I want to be more feminine and be able to be like a girl and be with men"

You're probably trans.

[Meisner]

Thank you for your answer, sweet Maddy. I thought about that, but I am not sure, because I like my manly side too. I mean doing guy's stuff, I like it, so its really confusing and complicated and I dont know what to do..

[SnakeBoop]

Trans isn't a sexuality.

[ItsMaddy]

You're welcome 😊. If you like females and your male side too, you're most likely sexually fluid like @donkeydan said. Sexually fluid people have bisexual attractions, and they can experience a changes in who and what they are sexually attracted to over some time.

[Meisner]

Thank you once again, sweet girl. It looks like its best not to think too much about it and just see what it is next for me.. I mean I am attracted to men, so I should try that and if I like it, then continue and if I fell inlove with a woman again, then good, if not-then I will be most likely gay..

[ItsMaddy]

You're most welcome 😊

[Meisner]

<3 <3 <3

[SnakeBoop]

You're gay.

[Meisner]

Can you tell why do you think that?

[SnakeBoop]

Dude this isn't rocket science Into women sexually, straight. Into both genders sexually, bi Into men sexually, gay. Fucking hell, use a brain cell.

[LaFemmeFatale_1]

You sound like a bisexual to me.

Seems like a breakup with your ex was a big trauma for you and it made you feel even more confused.

You still like women at the same time you feel attracted to men, but keep feeling guilty for it, just hope you know there’s nothing wrong about it… Don’t feel guilty for who you like or who you are.

[DonkeyDan]

If you have no sexual interest in girls and only in guys then, yeah you're most likely gay.

[Meisner]

Well I had before..

[DonkeyDan]

Maybe you're sexuality fluid, meaning you switch between sexualities, or you are bisexual with a greater leaning towards men.

[slatyb]

See a therapist

[AvaOneLasTime]

I saw similar question, so this is report. Why.

[UniquelyBasic]

Based on the post Id say your gay but who cares about a label. Just explore your sexuality and find someone who makes you happy whether that be a man or woman.

[ColtonLG]

Didn’t read this post, but seeing that your pfp is a picture of of your ass, you’re probably gay dude…

[Meisner]

It's complicated..

[gabby100]

That is a situation. One question why did you break up..

[GMANN56]

Sounds like you are gay to me. Own it.