Sexual Relationships 
Sexual Health 
The last year I started to change my mind a lot about this conflict. I'll start off by admitting that I am not skinny. I'm not obese, but I am chubby. Like a lot of girls my size in college, I was just too fat to show off to friends and brag about, but still cute enough for a good fuck I guess. That's the reality that I see now, but back in the day, i felt like I was being ignored all the time. The guys were constantly going for the same pretty girls. When they got drunk, realized they weren't gonna score with those girls but still needed to bust a nut, they came to me. Or if they were horny at home and too lazy to go out and meet girls, i'd get a lot of booty calls.
Feeling Good
I always accepted the advances. It just made me feel wanted, attractive, sexy. I'd make myself feel better thinking about the fact that I made them cum, not the skinny girls. But of course the next day, the guys had another nut to bust and all their attention went back to the skinnier girls. And I was just the cumdumpster for the night.
The sex
The way guys had sex with me also became more and more "pornographic" as I got more of a reputation. I enjoyed it, but I did mostly feel like they were using me. I can't count the times a guy was just doing me from behind as hard as he could, slapping my ass and chugging a beer can at the same time. Also very often I was just blowing a guy and they just assumed that they'd cum on my face without asking me. I also thought it was normal that they talked dirty, while later I heard that most girls weren't called a dirty slut or fucking whore during the sex all the time.
The reputation
I used to just enjoy the sex and not think about my reputation because i didn't care about all the bullshit and the slut shaming. I felt like I could have sex with whomever I wanted and whenever I wanted. I didn't listen to everyone telling me to watch out for my reputation. Now I have a boyfriend (finally) and only now I realize that maybe there was a lot of truth to those warnings. Even though I believed that I could do whatever i wanted, other people thought differently and I was making a name for myself. Now it effects my boyfriend. For instance, a couple weeks back a drunk guy at the bar reacted to us kissing with: "don't you taste a hundred dicks when you kiss her?" He afterwards just said sorry that it was a joke. Another guy told my bf: "well we don't all want to marry a girls that half the town blasted their load on". Again, it was just a joke. My boyfriend stays cool about it, but I do realize that he doesn't have the easiest time after such an incident thinking about the hundred guys and me. Also the fact that my old student club keeps my name as "blowjob queen" in their online magazine awards, doesn't help either.
What I want to tell you is: Girls, before you go enjoy your right as a sexually free woman, think about the consequences. I do still think that I was right in the way I thought back then, but it's not just my thought that matters, and it's not only me that my decisions have effect on. Actions do have consequences, whether you like it or not. I just hope more girls, especially the less secure ones like me, realize this and don't have to realize it when it's too late. Once you're seen as a slut, you can't just loose the image.
Most Helpful Guys