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Hey you guys some of you have followed me for a while now and have helped me with a bunch of advice and I just wanted to say thank you. And give you an update on what has happened since December.
So as most of you know him (29) (me 28) long story short, boyfriend has porn problem he has been for 10+ years but didn’t realize he had this problem until 1 yr after our relationship& confronted him about it. We’ve been together for almost 3yrs. I’ve been suffering in silence for almost 2yrs now. We’ve been on a rollercoaster for the longest.
& at last it has come to an end, I confronted him many many times about it, it got to the point where weren’t intimate anymore and we’re just like two strangers living in a house. It’s sad to me I would’ve never thought I’d ever have to life or go through something like this, and very least break up cause of this, but I’ve taken this as a learning experience. I know a lot of you may say it’s just porn it's no big deal, you’re overreacting but it isn't just "porn"
to them it's something beyond that they have
no control over, it controls them. This has scarred me and mentally hurt me so much, I’m hoping that I will soon heal from this.
It actually got so bad that I actually ended up cheating late December but after about a month later (in January) I found out he was going on hook up sites around the same time I cheated, trying to hook up with locals, I don't know if he ever actually acted on it (and I don’t want to find out) but it made me feel less guilty I am taking this to the grave I know it was super wrong and it’s not justified but I was just desperate and lonely.
After New Years passed we both realized how unhappy we were it was just not working out and we had to focus on ourselves (to hopefully be better for eachother) and make this relationship a side, we were gonna take it day by day. But have recently come to agreement that it’s best we separate. I am somewhat relieved that after all this I get to be free, it got so intense that his problem with porn and OF had become MY PROBLEM. I am obviously sad we broke up 3 weeks ago, he is still currently living with me but will be moving out second week of March. It is very awkward living in my apartment we barely speak to each other, my 6 yr old son is sad cause he has almost completely made him a side, (they’re bond was very close) I’ve explained to him what is going. Some days I break down & cry but others I am feeling strong & just want him to leave already so I can move on with my life. I’ve tried being his friend bc at days he looks sad too& I know he doesn’t count on a lot of people to talk to, but he either gives me the cold shoulder or is a complete douchbag so I’ve tried stopping all type of interaction with him but it’s hard. I recently found out he was commenting flirty stuff&hearting a lot of girls stuff on IG & it came up on my feed & I politely told him I was going to remove him bc I didn’t want to see that & found it disrespectful & ever since that day he’s been super salty with me. I know I shouldn’t be angry/jealous or sad/upset cause we’re broken up but at least he shouldn’t have to do that in my face at least if I were to ever to that I’d be super discreet about it. Like I said I’ve tried doing small talk but nothing I’m just waiting for these few weeks to pass.
I need to find a job soon, since he payed mostly everything I am ready to start a new life and find my self again to be the strong independent women I once was. I know a lot of other people have had it tougher but anything is possible we just have to keep pushing forward and keep our head held high.
Anyways thank you for whoever reads this. It truly means a lot. Have a great weekend.
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