Gave 2 different guys blowjobs within 24 hours?

I feel like a mess. I got drunk at my friend's bonfire and me and this guy started making out, I didn't tell him but I had never kissed a guy before because I was always scared to and I've never had a boyfriend. We started making out and went to this hayloft at my friend's house. We got naked and made out and I gave him a blowjob, which I had never done before but I believe I did a decent job, he didn't cum because he was rather drunk and I was a little bit too drunk to perform well. I told him I had never done that before so he was like "don't sweat it", he was more into touching and kissing anyway. I started to sober up and I couldn't believe it. I'm not too proud of it but I try not to regret those things, only a small amount of people know and all those people know I don't usually interact with guys so I don't think I horribly tarnished my reputation. Bigger problem, I have been talking to an older guy. I'm 18, he's 22. We just went on a few dates and he really wanted to kiss me but I wouldn't let him. Well, I didn't tell him about the night before because I had told him him I've never kissed. Fast forward, we made out and I gave him a blowjob, I wasn't super against it but I didn't want to that bad either, he did finish. It didn't taste great. Anyway, I'm just really ashamed. Two days ago I had never kissed anyone, now I've given two different guys a blowjob. It's so unlike me. I feel trashy now, and before I was super innocent. Even though sex shouldn't be shameful, I just know it's unlike me. I'm well educated in sex. I should have been more hesitant but I don't think I want to do stuff like this for a while. What do I tell the guy I'm talking to? I also don't really like making out, is that weird? Maybe I'm just bad at it, but I also just don't like the idea of someone's tongue in my mouth. Never have. I almost miss being the girl no one ever kissed. I don't feel like myself. I'm not a troll, honest. Just a foolish girl, looking for some advice.
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I'm going to add. 2000 character was not enough. The first guy, he didn't come on to me, originally, he was kissing both my friend and I. She left, we went off together. He asked what I wanted to do and what I was okay with I said "I will suck your dick" he was on board, I did. I was mostly just in shock. Later, I hung out with the guy I'm kinda talking to, we haven't discussed what we are. He led the way, making out, he wanted to eat me out, I didn't want him to so I offered oral.
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  • Hey, you are curious.. and the moment gets hot. a lot of times making out leads to groping which leads to more.
    You are by no way the only girl or guy who's been there.

    And if anything, don't dwell on it :)

  • Stop drinking. You can't handle alcohol sensibly and therefore shouldn't consume it.

    • This is the only time it's happened. I have been drunk many times before, I don't know why this time was different. Alcohol fueled it but I also think my interaction came from some other personal problems. Otherwise, would not have gotten involved with this guy.

    • Well I'm sure you'll get over it.

  • And then some people complain about slut shaming.

    • But I'm not a slut, I made two bad decisions. Like I said, never had kissed a boy prior to all this. The second time I did it mostly cause that's all I knew how to do and felt like I had to do something

    • Yes you made two bad decisions. But we all suffer the consequences for what we do in life.

    • Not if no one knows, and I'm anonymous so it won't really matter to anyone but those involved.

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  • Lmaooo. Blowjobs are so intimate in my opinion, I'd never blow a guy I didn't care for tbh.

    • I find kissing to be more intimate than oral

  • I know what you feel
    You can't undone it
    But you can not go further
    You will always have something to lose, but you don't realize that untill you lose it

  • What sluts are western gurls. Only Muslims will correct you.

    • Having trouble taking you seriously

    • You need a pack of Muslims teach ya modesty

    • I'm a Christian. And have no interest in the type of person who calls girls sluts or spells girls as "gurls"

  • it's good that your ashamed-it shows you know what you did was wrong. this is why us ''religious nutcases'' are against premarital sex... it always leads to something like this. another piece of advise to never be too sure of yourself.

    • I am religious but only very recently have I been focusing on my religion, another reason I feel guilty, but I didn't want to include that I didn't want people to get caught up on it. I figured it would taint my whole question and turn into a battle ground for religious discussion. I know better than that by now.

    • that's good. don't let ANYTHING to interfere with your relationship with god... even if it's something worth-while... especially if it's worth-while... learned that the hard way.

  • Now u become a true girl.

  • Maybe hormones? Or your inner promiscuity is showing?

  • did you end up dating the guy? did you ever tell him what happened?

  • Dont worry. Its a one off because you were drunk. It doesn't make you a slag. Drink less next time, just kiss a guy then give a bj on first date x

  • Drop the alcohol from your life and only suck dick if you're ready

  • It's simple, you're a whore.

    • As the person who actually experienced, hardly an insult.

  • You need to slow down. Making out does not mean you have to blow them. You may feel inadequate and like you have to blow them or else they won't be interested in you
    . don't think that. Besides you aren't so educated in sex because you can get an std from oral sex. So stop blowing and slow down

    • I do know the risks of sex. That doesn't make me uneducated, I'm just not doing what I've been told. I mostly just gave them because the first time I was drunk and thought it was a good idea at the time. I was mostly just embarrassed. Then the second time I felt more comfortable doing something I had done before.

    • Well I'm letting you know you should stop.

  • You don't have to make out with tongue. I don't like it, my boyfriend trys every now and then and I do it when I'm drunk but it's just gross.

  • You know you were wrong, thats why you are asking this question, don't even try to minimize what you did, own up to it. All these girls telling you not to worry are the biggest hypocrites ever when you know for a fact if a man posted something about being drunk and doing sexual things to girls they'd be down his throat judging him like crazy.

    Yes you are a slut, yes it was horrible and for your sake, never tell any guy ever or you'll be dumped very quickly

    • No, you would dump a girl like me very quickly. You are only one person. I didn't try to minimize my actions. I did own up, that's why I posted the question. Both interactions involved consent, so that's besides the point. I may have done a slutty thing but I am far from a true slut so your attitude made it impossible to take anything helpful away from your opinion.

    • no, lots of guys would dump you quickly. you are just a fuck and chuck girl now. congrats

    • Yes, let's decide who people are from a GAG question. Your opinion is worthless to me. So no need to reply. Have a nice life.

  • Damn, girl-friend. Slow your roll.

  • Wow! That's a lot of penis in 24 hours! lol! Which one did you prefer? :P

    • Preferably neither.

    • Really? Neither one was floating your boat? That IS a bad night! What was wrong with them?

    • No, nothing was wrong with either. I just wish I hadn't done it. They performed fine. Also I don't think it is necessary for me to tell people.

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  • nasty slut lol

    • You are a 45+ anon whose calling 18 year old girls sluts so that's hardly an insult.

    • He's just jealous, don't pay any attention to him.

  • It's ok. Don't be ashamed. You did nothing wrong. You're still the girl you used to be.

    • That doesn't sound nice to me

    • No she has sexually awakened!