Girls, have you ever been abused as a child? is this a lot more common than is public knowledge?

[rebeliouse]

are a lot of girls messed up because of their past?

[Hawkes_Lady]

Yes, I think that sexual abuse of children is a lot more common than is publically acknowledged. I think that there are a lot of damaged children out there because of disgusting adults, both male and female.

My life was forever changed when I was 9 years old and my mother's boyfriend decided to come into my room and touch me in a sexual manner. He sexually abused me from the age of 9 to the age of 13, as well as his daughter who was a a year younger than me, and her brother who was 2 years older than me. My first introduction to a porn movie was for him to put in a movie and tell the three of us to do what they're doing on the screen and when we didn't, he forced us into position. (My two amigos who were tortured with me committed suicide, they couldn't deal with the abuse we endured. I am the only one left.) For 3 years I was trained that sex hurt, and men took what they wanted and if you fought back it hurt worse. At 14 my mother broke up with her boyfriend (not because of the abuse that I was enduring)

At 14 (a couple of months shy of being 15), my mother remarried. About 5 months into their marriage my new stepfather and his adult son came into my room. My stepfather looked at me with a serious look on his face and explained what he expected of me and that if I didn't want it to hurt then I would cooperate and be a good girl. The first time, I wasn't and quickly learned that my stepfather meant what he said. My stepbrother didn't want to be there but was also abused by his father and begged me to not fight and he'd try to make it as enjoyable as he could for me. I didn't want to be there, I'd tried fighting and ended up being hurt and restrained, it was easier to cooperate. So for the most part I went along with whatever they did. However, I was creeped out that I could see my stepfather masturbating as my stepbrother had his way with me as his father told him exactly what to do. So that lasted from the age of 15 to 17 years old.

When I was 22 years old, I finally decided to sleep with the first man that I chose. For the most part, it was an okay relationship. Except for the fact that I didn't really have a voice in what we did in the bedroom. I pretty much just allowed him to do whatever he wanted no matter how I felt about it.

Anyway, the first time we did anal, I didn't know what he had planned. He flipped me over onto my stomach grabbed my hips and pulled them up, I thought we were going to do it doggy-style. He reached between my legs and pushed his fingers into my pussy and got them wet, slathered my juices on my ass and slammed himself into me, and started thrusting away.

Basically, when it came to introducing me to anal... he raped me. I yelled and started crying... I tried to push him away from me. I tried to drop my hips down to get him out and he just lifted my hips back up and kept pounding away. He slapped my ass hard, but that didn't really register because of the other pain I was in. No prep, no gentleness, no lube except for the fingers in my pussy once.

He sure did look and sound as though he enjoyed it. He rode me hard and shot his load in my ass, then collapsed beside me and went to sleep. My yelling and crying didn't even seem to bother him.

The saddest part about it was I stayed with him for another year and I never stopped him from doing anything he wanted because I was sexually abused as a child. I'd been trained that sex hurt and men take what they want. For me, that was just the way it worked.

After that first time, when he did that again, there was still no prep or gentleness to it, but I found that the more times I did it, the less it hurt, and after the first few times I found that it didn't hurt anymore and it actually started to feel really good. It was doing anal with him that I had my very first orgasm without clit stimulation. It was a shock to me when it happened because I had always needed clit stimulation to orgasm before. I found that I could orgasm fast and hard with just anal penetration, to this day it is the fasted way to get me to orgasm.

Now, though... I require the man I am with to pamper and take care of me. If they want the pleasure of my tight ass, then they better be willing to do the prep work to get me ready and stretched and happy to take their cock in my ass.

[Anonymous]

that i know of i didn't have anyone abuse me as a kid

i did hear about some girls that were though. this might not be right since this is something i heard over a decade ago, but like in two grades lower than me in elementary school there was this girl who was abused by her dad and her stepmom? (not sexually i think) like they hit her, neglected her, and treated her badly. the dad's uncle was also really cruel and was a pedo. the girl's cousin which came at school a couple times was apparently badly sexually abused by the uncle (who was also her uncle) who had custody of her. i hung out with her once that i remember, with her friends and her cousin. i remember she made school cousin get undressed in front of us for the laughs and took pics on her phone for her uncle... her friend also said her uncle likes that stuff

they got a happy ending though, i heard the uncle and dad (plus the stepmom? or mom i forgot) got arrested a couple months after all that happened because teacher's were really concerned so they got the police involved. the girls were given to the only nice person in their family to take care of them, and apparently they got help therapy wise and were much happier :)

also when i was in psych wards and that type of stuff there was a couple girls like that. one girl was sexually and physically abused by her dad for years once he got custody of her when the mom died. he was very violent, also a drug addict and forced her to do a lot of drugs, so badly she had severe heart problems at 15 when i met her. think the abuse was from 11 to 14, but he had touched her up and stuff when she was 8ish when she stayed with him on vacation..

there was also another girl who was in there cause her uncle raped her a couple times when she was 11

there was also another girl who was abused at around 12. she had a mild case of did. like she had her main normal personality with one alter that would pop up rarely

remember there was also a girl who was very very badly abused from like 5-6 years old until like 11 or so by multiple men while her abusive drug addict mom knew and allowed it, dont remember the story though but her story was really really shocking

[Opinion Owner]

dont think that its that common if were talking 12 and under but its not so so rare that its like 1 in 100 000000 people or something. i only knew that amount of people like that because i was in psychiatric clinics where a lot of the girls there were in for disorders from trauma like ptsd or anorexia. you wouldn't find that concentration of abuse victims in the general population like that

[Chevy1_kb]

yes me and my 2 sisters were at young ages then my sister's friend tried to accuse me of doing it to her daughter a was pure crying i would never do that then the next day she came down crying saying she was sorry for doing it she told her daughter to lie for her she was litrely bursting into tears crying saying am so sorry siobhan and saying to my mum she was sorry and cuddling us mostly me because she made it up and told her daughter to say the stuff and I would never do that its happend to me and my 2 sisters when we were younger i would never never do that so she said sorry we just put it in the past we all became friends again for years and years all behind us but she's lucky i forgave her for lying about me like that but she was crying and a dont like to see people upset so i said to her its ok let's just forget it

[Anemone978]

Probably.. I wasn't molested but a few of my friends were.. they tend to be sluttier than regular girls..

[Anonymous]

I don't know the definition of abuse. At the age of 3-4 one guy made me to hold his penis but under the clothes and blanket i didn't know what I was holding but after that i got white liquid in my hands. He didn't touched me inappropriately or so only made me hold his.

I somewhat understood it was penis but I got curious how penis could be this thick and that made me always to try to peep the penis of growing boys or adult (but i never succeed)

During my Teenage in public transport few moments i got my breasts touched. It was soooooo stressful that i was soooooo full of anger afterwards and in tears but i could not able to say anything to that person because of hesitation of getting noticed by people as I'm interovert kind person.

In my late teenage time one man whom i respected a lot made me to send him nudes for a long time over some social sites. (Don't judge me that why i let him do why i did etc because you don't know whole story) He had never touched me in physical but it was all online.

So among all these incident what to call abused I don't know but it all affected me throughout my life mentally a lot.