I have an incurable STD and this is my short story

[Anonymous]

I have hsv2 and have had it since about Christmas of 2022. Or at least that is when I started to experience symptoms and went to urgent care.

I had gotten out of a relationship with a lying, manipulative boyfriend and wanted to move on.

Met this guy, hit it off, and started spending every day together. Things started out safe of course, he said he was going to get tested and we could both go and show each other. Things happened around the time in his life, kind of slipped my mind for a little and I being me let my guard down a little too much.

Worst decision of my life and now I'm paying for it. Everything stripped from me just like that. My entire future and life path has changed course. No children, no marriage, no more casual dating (not even without sex). I feel even less desirable now even though no one really knows. I'm ashamed of myself and wish things could have been different. "why couldnt I have at least got something less serious?" " why didn't I say no to hanging out and just stayed by myself?"

I had only been sexually active for 3 years. 2 boyfriends, barely any sexual partners. It is a lesson to be learned and I may never come back from it. Something i can not live with if there is no cure or change in my situation. I have been contemplating suicide on and off.

I was stupid, didn't listen to myself or little things I should have intuition wise. If I ever get the chance to fix things I will be wiser, I will work on self love even harder and get out of this sh**ty environment at home and everywhere else that had even a small impact on who I am and my reasoning deep down for my lack of good choices.

Don't be like me...

I needed to get this off my chest

The best thing of all is that there is a man that has pretty cured virus latency in mice and guinea pigs but he just needs approval from the FDA.