I'm obsessed with rape, unjudgmental help please?

[Anonymous]

When I was younger (5) used to be shy but I got better at being confident (7) and then just before we moved schools I got quiet again (9). Looking back I've realised that it was more than shyness, I hardly spoke at all, even now. And it's not until I turned 16 that I first started to be sexually attracted to guys which all considered it pretty late.

But that's when it all started, I became obsessed with rape and sexual assualt, not because I wanted to commit those acts nor have them done to me but because I felt immense sympathy for the victim, a strong connection. I'd watch those scenes and my stomach would quiver. Then I was sexually assaulted last year, not because I wanted it and not because my obsession lead me there. It was because I believed I was in love and I thought I had the encourage to say no if needed.

After that my obsession only grew with books, movies, TV series etc, statistics, real life stories. I want to say again that I never wanted or want to be raped or hurt nor would I do those things but I cnat help but watch these things over and over. Somethings wrong with me, I just know it. Im not sure if it has something to do with my childhood, I can't remember much until after 9, thats when my memory became sharp and specific. I really need someone to help me understand this.

[N192K001]

You should probably research your jurisdiction's local rape-victim support-groups, and ask them for help. They have the training, experience, statistics of the demographics in your area, etc. to better advise you on how best to cope and recover from this.

Also, it may help to replace your obsession with something else: a hobby, religion, self-defense training, studying/earning a new (esp. 'marketable' given the current economy & projected trajectory for the next few years) skill, etc. Indeed, there are times that obsessions about something exactly lead to the thing itself, and (in this case) it was destructive. It might help to obsess with something actually constructive this time.

[btbc92]

I think I kind of understand what you're talkin about. Please ignore all these other people who are Converse and colluded with their mindset is highly disgusting. You are not obsessed with rape. You are obsessed with Injustice. You want to see others pay for their mistakes. You want victims to be healed. You want to know the psychology about what leads people to do what they do. And one point you want to fully understand yourself and why what you experience led you to desire to do more in that aspect. My suggestion is that maybe you can get into law school. Maybe become a detective. Maybe you can get into international relations and fight against human trafficking and rape. That's what I suggest you do so you can put that to good use.

[Quackthulu]

Sounds to me like you would do well finding yourself a dedicated dom to help you work on getting your needs in a safe controlled environment.

[Guffrus]

Well it could be that something happened when you were very young and you are blocking it out or perhaps you have just allowed this thing to get way out of control, people get obsessed with all sorts of things but if its interfering with the enjoyment of your life then its a problem and you should try to think and do other things.

[slatyb]

Try a therapist?

[AmeerX]

You are mixing your feeling of submissive feelings with rape. Don't do that. You want is just a strong caring man and not a rapist.
Rapists are abusive and overpower you. Strong dominant guys just want to take care of you without overpowering you

[cou82]

yea i am not to sure. but i have to say being sexually assaulted and being obsessed with watching that stuff id have to say your a very strong woman. maybe you just enjoy this type of thing and that is your fettish. everybody has something they preffer.

[rgw235]

It's most likely just a fantasy to have a rape roleplay with someone. As long as it's with consent and you set out boundaries and expectations it's not a bad thing.

[Valnac]

Lots of girls have that fantasy.
What you are experiencing right now is hormones.
I suggest you masturbate as much as you can. It’s safer.

[9Livezzz]

You should probably see a therapist

[Smirnoff23]

I think you need professional help you need to know what happened in your childhood

[Anonymous]

Your assault has only solidified your fascination. You need to fully heal from it to have a chance of getting past your obsession.