I secretly want his babies? Even though I really don't?

Question

I have this desire to have him cum inside me or that an "accident" happens. The thing is, in "real life" I don't want that to ever happen. I know that during sex natuarally that instinct kicks in for both sexes, but we use our brains and try and prevent that by using protection etc. We are always being careful and use protection and we've been dating for a year and a half. But this isn't just during sex, this is something I think about like if I'm about to get my period I think to myself "hope it doens't come" but when I'm actually days late and it's more than usual for me, I'd freak out and think "be careful what you wish for" and hope for my period to come so bad and when I get it I'm so happy. I don't want a baby anytime soon in my life. I don't know why. I don't see marriage or anything like that within at least 4 or 5 years. So I don't even want kids till a couple of years after I'm married! And that's years from now. I wanna travel and do many things within my next few years in this big beautiful world, and I know I'm not ready yet to settle. I don't understand why I get this feeling when really that's not what I want, I'd find myself fantasize of he and I having a baby and feel like aww I wanna be pregnant. But then when I'm actually late, I freak.

I guess what im asking is do you guys feel this way? I mean if you don't or do it won't make a difference really, but I'm just curious.

Darkfairie17 · Accepted Answer

I've definitely felt like that a time or two. But I think it's just biology. Sex is basically for reproduction. Though we do it for pleasure too. But reproduction is the main purpose.

I think what you are feeling is perfectly normal.

I would love to be a mom someday, and it makes me sad it hasn't happened yet. But it's life and I have to deal with the cards I've been dealt.

Anonymous · Accepted Answer

I've DEFINITELY felt like this before. I want him to cum in me, I want him to get me pregnant and I want to have his baby, but I can't afford a child right now so I'd be freak out if I miss my period right now. I don't know how to describe these feelings. Maybe it's something about having a part of him growing inside you? Maybe u enjoy feeling his penis throbbing before he explodes?

Wonderer89 · Accepted Answer

Sadly no, I actually want a baby 😉
Before we were trying I kind of felt the same way but was always up to date on birth control but part of me would still hope. My biggest desire since I was around 22 was to be a mother though

dragonfly6516 · Accepted Answer

It's called "lust". Your body, and nature, are trying to tell you that of all all the guys around you, this one specifically, will make the stronger most healthy children with you.

Anonymous · Accepted Answer

Sounds like to me that you don't know what you want? Or, you'd like to have a baby (as most women do) but in your brain, you know now is not the time. You'll still have that want/craving though, it's human nature. You just have to continue to be smart about it and listen to your brain. Some women don't and it usually doesn't go well.

James1986 · Accepted Answer

Thats nature for you ;) Its damn good at what it does too. Thats why birth control is so good. It lets you get in lots and lots of "practice" until you are ready to make a baby for real.

Kaylyne · Answer

I don't secretly want a baby. We desperately want a baby, and have been trying all year without success.  So you can well imagine my utter dismay when the "Red Bitch" arrives each month. :(