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I hope that sharing what happen might help someone and that helps breaking some stereotypes and misconceptions.
My ex told her friends that I was great in bed, some details included. Something that I actually didn't feel very comfortable with but I also didn't pay much attention to it.
I only discovered that because some of her friends approach me to know more about me since for them I was 'available'. One of her friends made me a proposal. She told me she was inexperienced and since I was so great she wanted to pay me to go to bed with her to teach her some things. I obviously felt insulted and said no.
Some days later I was at a party and the same girl kept insisting really hard. It made me feel very uncomfortable not only because of the situation itself but because I was with someone else. Later that night she apologized and offered me a drink. I felt so relieved. Turns out she had put something in that drink. I don't remember things very well. I just have flashes in my head until this very day. It was very weird like I couldn't control my body. She took me to her house against my will and started to undress me. I said I didn't want it to. I felt so disgusted. I kept insisting I wanted to leave but she kept saying I would going to love it. She was always in control of the situation. I tried several times to go away but I was so drugged that I barely could stand up. She took my clothes of and started kissing me. I remember crying hopeless without managing to get her of me. She tied me to the bed and started to give me a bj. Then she went on top of me and she forced me to have sex with her. I felt so humiliated. Didn't know what to think what to do. I passed out and don't remember much about the rest. I woke up with her still by my side. I was very afraid. Didn't know how to deal with the situation. She said it was the best sex of her life. That my ex was right and that she was very luck. That it was all worth it. I was in shock and couldn't say a word. She told me that she didn't care what I would tell anyone cause no one would believe me. No one would care and in fact people would just make fun of me. For a while I seek helped but found no information about it. I finally gain the courage to tell my friends about it. It was a mistake. she was right. No one believed me
It took me a lot to recover from it. I didn't had any help. I couldn't understand. I would blame myself.
Only after a few years and reading a lot about it I slowly started to get over it.
Obviously a guy needs to be excited in order to commit the act. It's actually kinda hard to explain. It's just the same as the girls that have orgasms when raped. Obviously they are not enjoying it. It's a biological process over the body that you cannot control whatsoever.
I still have nightmares.
I was raped by a girl
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