I was thinking I want a friends with benefits who is like a striper or porn mordel, etc. What do you think?

[Wade8888]

I feel like I will not be satisfied with my own deliverance from excessive religon until I learn to love the exact opposite person than religion teaches you to accept. I have come to realize the people who treated me the nicest were strippers and porn models, to be honest, and no "good bible believing christian" ever did anything nice to me in my life.

So, I have decided that I should try to make close friends with a stripper or another porn model or maybe even a prostitute, and just do my God's honest best to love her as she is. I don't even want her to change either. I want her ot do whatever makes her happy, and I just want ot learn to be her best friend and treat her like a little goddess or whatever.

I hate my own upbrining, because it ruined my life, and I hate the fact it took me so long to realize pretty much everything I as ever taught by an adult was wrong anyway from my childood and teenage years, and that carries fforward into ruining my own adulthood.

This is not something I take lightly, and it's not the first time I considered this problem. I was watching this columbian porn model strip for these two female photographers, and I was like "there's nothing wrong with this>" and even the sex tapes she did, I'm like, "nothing wrong with this either. It's consenting adults".

Besides, the Biblical definition of Marriage absolutely does not work for most people, period, and Jesus' definition of marriage is retarded. I can think of better reasons to divorce than fornication only, such as spousal abuse, child abuse drug abuse, etc.

Anyway, I apologize to anyone I've offended because of my screwed up religious beliefs in the past, and I'm trying to change myself, but it is never going to be possible to totally reverse crap I was brainwashed with from before I could even walk. My mother, Father, and Christian pastors ruined my life, and I tried to spread their lies to everyone else, and for that I'm sorry.