Is There Any Escape From Online Porn?

I lost my husband early this year and life has turned into a nightmare since then. I am well set financially, and that is part of the problem. I can work when I want to.

I have become addicted to online porn and phone sex. It is just so quick and easy and the chat line is free for women. I just don't know how to get out of it. I can't stop doing this.

I start by watching porn. When this gets me excited I call the chat line and talk to guys. I am up late into the night masturbating while listening to guys telling me the dirty things that they want to do to me.

At first I just used to mostly listen. Then I started doing more talking. I tell guys how I want to suck their cocks and taste their cum. I can't believe how filthy I am talking. I have never talked like this before. It sounds like a lot of teenagers use this chat line and many sound young enough to be my son. I tell them that I want them to be masturbating when I am talking to them.

One night I called another chat line. I must have pressed a wrong button because I ended up talking to a young girl. She told me she had never done anything like this before but she was bi-curious. I don't know what came over me but I pretended to be a lesbian. I had this girl playing with herself for an hour and a half while I told her how I wanted to lick her.

The next day I felt so dirty and perverted that I couldn't stand to look in a mirror. But as soon as I finished breakfast I called the same chat line and had lesbian phone sex with a woman in her 40s. But the only attraction of this was the naughtiness of it. I didn't masturbate while talking to females and went back to guys. Although I am thinking of talking to females once in a while, just for the naughtiness.

I don't know how to get out of this. It is addictive and taking over my life. I don't want real life friendships or relationships. I just want my online fantasy world.

The good thing is that I have absolutely no intention of doing any of this in real life.
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  • this may be better answered by a professional.
    It might have something to do with being repressed and not having your wants and desires met, so now you are making up for lost time, or you may be doing this instead of coping with your loss, and now you like it, and it has become an escape for you, so you don't have to face how you really are feeling.
    Again, I'm only guessing, and I have stayed at a Holiday Inn.
    old joke.

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  • All I can say is, don't try to block the websites. That will make you crave more for them.

    I would like to read other opinions on this question. This is quite new to me.

    • Porn is usually thought of as a guy thing but it is addictive to women too.

    • I know. Girls are at par in watching porn, with guys. Even more, if not less. But they are really subtle about it.

    • Phone sex is addictive too.

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  • Site blockers and kid apps that are designed to filter and be set to remove Porn or chosen sites etc.

  • You are doing what you want to do, and you are not interested in the alternatives. Why do you see this as a problem?

    • @OlderAndWiser She said she's addicted to porn and chat lines. That means it takes over her life.

    • @MysteriousDarkness Yes, I read everything that she wrote. I was wanting an answer from her.

  • There must be therapists out there who specialize in treating porn addiction

    • The X button up at the right.
  • Don't get out of it, direct it to something constructive.

    Call me maybe.

  • It's a trap.

    • what is?

    • @DDoSAttack Porn once you watch your hooked for life. 💞

    • are you sure her story is real? i dont believe women go and seek "phone sex". Where exactly is this "chat line"? go message her and ask her if she is real, i dont have the Xper points,

  • You should find something else to do. Like something you cannot avoid. To keep yourself busy. Or try dating

  • You need to find a real guy. People do this because they're alone and lonely. This is a way where they can get what they want from an actual relationship without going through the work that a relationship brings.

  • Ha! Awesome trolling.

  • That is a big problem with porn. It does seem to have benefited you however, opening up a bi-curiousness. But it could become so emersive you can’t orgasm without it. Which is definitionally paraphilia. And detrimental.

  • Just do other things

    • I have tried but this is just addictive.

    • Sex addiction is a real issue. It’s not as simple as “doing other things” @teriyaki70

    • @RangerBlue22 Ah OK. Sorry to hear that

  • Get back on the dating scene and get some real dick

  • Dm me I have experience with this

    • I can't dm. Can you contact me?

    • Try following me

  • May just be a faze, you may get bored at some point, do not beat yourself up about it, use the time to explore your wild side, find out what you really would like to try.

  • What is so hard about not watching it?

    You need therapy.

  • From what I’ve read you likely have an issue with sex addiction. When you look at porn and do phone sex it quickly releases chemicals in brain (serotonin, dopamine, etc) which gives you that quick “high” feeling.

    This is natural for human beings to feel those brain chemical releases via sexual encounters. But the extreme availability of porn and other escapes puts your brain in constant high and Lao adrenaline spike. To make matters worse your brain requires even more shocking variations to get the same “high”.

    The idea of lesbian sex probably for the longest time seemed extremely taboo to you. Now it’s giving you this emotional shock of shame, excitement, arousal, etc all in one.

    Anyway I personally have started to come to grips I might be a sex addict. I’ve gone to a few meetings about this. They are mostly men but there are a few women who have the same problem. I also theorize there are many more female than male sex addicts out there but they even more embarrassed and ashamed to acknowledge it.

    So anyway at these meetings I’ve seen time and time again a familiar pattern which involved past trauma and a desire to escape from it. I recommend you attend one. It’s called sex addict anonymous.