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I have been raped 4 times: when I was 18, 19, 20, and 21. I knew all four of my rapists, dated 2 of them. It has been a secret I have kept throughout the years as I come from a very religious family and had always gone to a private school where any kind of sexual behavior is looked down upon. With that being said, I could never tell my family or friends about the first time it happened..or the second...or the third...or the fourth. You, dear reader, may judge me and say it was my fault that it happened to me and that I deserved it. I'm sorry to inform you but you do not know the truth so I will enlighten you. I have grown strong enough to share with the world about my experiences to show being sexually assaulted is usually from someone you know and trusted. WARNING: The follow content contains explicit imagery. Do not read if you will be offended.
When I was 18, I went with my friend to his uncle's house 2.5 hours from mine. It was New Year's Eve and his whole family was gathering. I had known him for years and we were good friends. He wanted more but I told him I wasn't ready for a relationship and he said he respected it. We talked about anything and everything under the sun. Anyways, the party was a lot of fun and afterwards we went back to his parent's house with his sisters. We watched movies in the basement and played card games. It was 2am when his family decided to go to bed. The friend and I were going to watch one more movie. During the movie, he kissed me out of the blue. I didn't like it and he got mad. He proceeded to pick me up, carry me into the room he was staying in in the basement, undress me, take pictures, and steal my virginity. He had a wild look in his eyes and he was bigger than me so I couldn't stop him. I cried but he stuffed my panties in my mouth. After he finished in me, he took pictures of his "masterpiece". He then forced me to clean him up taking more pictures. On the drive back, he pulled off to the side of the road multiple times to satisfy himself. There was no one to help me.
At 19, I dated this guy who seemed sweet. He was religious like me and my family liked him. One day he said a bunch of friends were meeting at his parent's cabin to just hangout. I was excited since the cabin had a prime spot on the lake. He picked me up and we went to the cabin. As you can assume, there was no friends to meet us. There never was. He raped me in the cabin. Even if I did cry, no one would have heard me since the cabin was pretty secluded. He finished in me and then forced me to blow him til he came in my mouth as well. Just like the first, on the ride back, he stopped multiple times to use me to his liking.
The 3rd rapist was a friend of mine who had the same major as me and we were study buddies. I went to his house often as he was a commuter and I would usually stay for dinner. His family was sweet and I loved his dog. The one study time, we took a break and was helping his mom make some lunch. His mom got a call to the hospital and left us to finish lunch by ourselves which is no biggie. However, my friend had other ideas. He picked me up and threw me on the couch. He fingered me roughly making me cry. He thought I liked it. He removed my clothes and thrusted deep right away. I squealed and his dog came running in, barking. He picked me up (still in me) and carried me to his room, locking the dog out. He threw me on the bed and positioned me how he wanted me. He was a very tall and muscular guy and I couldn't have stopped him if I wanted to. I could only cry silent tears. As he thrusted, he put a hand around my throat and choked me so I was on the edge of blacking out. When he was done with that, he flipped me over and held me down as he forced me to deep throat him. i couldn't breathe but he didn't care. He finished in my mouth and didn't leave until I swallowed it all. I gasped for air when he was done and he just laughed. He assaulted me 3 more times that day, laughing and saying i enjoyed it.
The 4th rapist was actually my current boyfriend. We dated for 8 months and he respected my wishes to not get super intimate. One night he caved. We were watching Netflix at his apartment after a long day at the beach when he started getting handsy. I squirmed and he told me to relax. I told him no but it made him upset. He pulled me off the couch and pushed me into his bedroom. He shoved me onto the bed and proceeded to finger me roughly. My cry only egged him on. He took off my clothes quickly and slipped inside me. He whispered in my ear how tight I was and how I liked it. I whimpered "no, no, no" over and over again. He flipped me over for doggy and after awhile he pulled out. He then forced himself in my mouth and made me swallow his load. I was praying he was done but I was wrong. After some bites on my neck, he started to play with my anus. I told him that was a definite no but he told me he was going to have all of me and I was going to like it. He penetrated me anally. I tried to move away but it only hurt more so I stayed still. I cried myself to sleep that night.
My family and closer girl friends never understood why all of a sudden I stopped talking to these guys. They don't know that even though years have passed, I still have nightmares of these instances. They don't know this secret of mine.They don't know I have been wary of guys and their intentions ever since. No one knows. But now you do. This topic is not easy to talk about and just as hard to admit it ever happened (trust me I know). But now I share it with you so you can be aware of the realness of rape and other forms of sexual assault. A great weight has been lifted sharing this and while it will not erase what has happened, confessing this dark secret has made me realize I am now strong enough to confront it and help those who may have gone through the same thing. Being sexually assaulted is not always done by a random stranger but more often a trusted friend. It is real and it can cause many unseen scars that will never fully heal.
What Girls & Guys Said
32 55It must have been tough for you to confess everything you experienced. You're not alone, I am sure there are people willing to support you, people who have gone trough the same nightmares and others who are angels on earth.
Sadly, unfortunately rape might be more common than what we might think, and is a friend, a relative or SO that is more likely to be the rapist, not a stranger like is commonly believed. Is there any solution to it? I would say the only solution is sexual education for an early age to break down the sexual objectification and be able to detect a potential rapist or someone who has a behavior that would induce to sexual violence.
Why are you still with #4
I am so sorry! I'm crying so hard! I hope you are okay! Be safe, and again, I AM SO SORRY FOR YOU.
If this is true. Why is it that you have shit friends and shit boyfriends. Stop banging out with guys in general
This read like a Penthouse Forum story.. Left me hard... Not sure how true this is.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJF9eonZtTw
These people are fucking evil and need to be chopped up in a mob style of execution, unfortunately the Content is too difficult to read, but I hope you are able to find resolve with yourself, you are beautiful, and never deserved to be abused, it is not your fault.
Women are fucked up beyond measure. Fuck a prostitute with a condom and you can relax afterwards knowing you won't be charged with fake rape charges, defamation suit, social embarrassing situation, drama, etc etc
I have trouble believing this because it seems way too similar. It's like the same story played out 4 times.
Secondly, regardless of it's truth or not, if a crime has been committed then moral obligation at least in my view would state that you inform the authorities immediately, and if not for your own sake then for the sake of other girls who may be assaulted in the future.
You should report these guys to the police.
Too late. The investigators need physical proof immediately after the crime and even then it's his word against hers. I know because of my own case. If other girls speak out against any of the men that raped her, she can help support those women using her #metoo voice. But not enough people support the #metoo movement... So she is screwed either way.
@sugarchateau Well maybe you just need to go to an expert to help you get over the trauma. And next time to report it immediately after.
Jfc. I did do it immediately after, she didn't. I did go to a therapist and it did help a little, but that trauma stays with you for ever.
@sugarchateau I guess there's really no other way.
@sugarchateau correct me if i'm wrong that's why sisters have brothers don't you think that might help to sort things out
@AqibFarid I don't know what you mean. Like have a guy friend beat up the guy and risk going to jail for physical assault?
@sugarchateau something like that but not exactly, like not ending up in police station though, i'have experinced a similar scenario like this, when a girl have a brother i mean may be by blood or not but he considers you a sister then you can't imagine if someone hurts you he'll definitely be paying that back and i think this give secures a girls too bcz when someone will even think to something wrong wrong to her he''ll think twice when he know he have a brother who will be paying back what he do
Wow. If you're being honest then what a horrible experience.
You should have called the police a long time ago on these animals.
This sounds so fake. "Aaah look at me, I am a 4 time victim, let me put #mew2 #hashtag and tell because of 'RELIGION' I wasn't able to tell anyone..."
Do you think we are stupid or something?
lol Mew2 though. I'm dead omg
@VonDamme it is anti ban way of saying what I want to say, because this site is lead by a liberalis riitaardis
Confessions should be made at a police station, not on G@G. Unfortunately, we can't really do anything here, the police is here for that.
Interesting myTake but I don't believe you
tell the police
wow
, thats an experience , wanna join my gang of killing humans
I've gone out asking for it as its my fantasie
I'm so sorry this happened to you, what you describe is horrid and should never happen.
I hope this won't taint your ideas on all men, there are those of us that are certainly not like that at all.
They should be charged and jailed for their crimes...
Another #metoo spreading their fake or exaggerated story.
This sound extremely fake and dramatic story, unless you met bunch of criminals and rapests 😂😂😂
I tried to believe you and sympathize, but this sounds fake
I really don't want to come over cold, but I think this is pure bullcrap