Sharing my trauma with my first crush, I too afraid to have crush on someone, is that normal?

I had an awful experience with my fisrt crush at age of 16 , he was 2 years old then me. We were classmates since age of 10. I barely talk to him. But one day he noticed me staring at him & he ask if we should have a date to talk & I WAS SO HAPPY.

I dressed up & meet him at a location that he suggested near our high school hill ( we were in countryside ) i still remember it's was a summer night & the location which is a hill that had an old building that still had a light that still shines at night which is far from homes or main road.

As I was walking with him, he barely look at him as he was walking fast but I was young & have to be with him.

In the local we set down & he asked me that I am beautiful which made my heart melt. THEN he asked me if I ever watch adult stuff as p*rnhub which I had no idea what was it at that age. Then he proceeded to touch my chest as he talking what he would love to do with my body. I was uncomfortable I told to stop but he said * I know you like me & I like you. People do this all time* my stupid ass said " okay... can you talk about anything else "

He told me to stand up & push us to wall of the building where no light will shine on us. Being to press his body with mine. I had tears in my eyes because I was so shocked about the experience but he didn't cared & tell me do deal with it. I kick him and he shut my mouth incase i will scream which I was planning to.

He being to masturbating press his Lower naked body against mine but he didn't undress my lower body but my upper body. I tried to kick him but not chance. Then he had a white liquid hands which he washed them using my water then he told me it's time to go home. I dress myself then I didn't see him. I was so afraid to call my friends to join me at the location. I walked way back home. The next at school he ignore me completely. I didn't tell anyone this story because I am the one that follow him in first place. I changed my school as my father agreed.
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9 years after now I have a crush on someone which I believe they crush on me too but I always remember that experience when I am with my crush at the work place. Is that normal? Even worse my ex crush send me a friend request in Facebook the last weekend which made made fall sick for 2 days after that recalling the memory of him even being awake. DO I NEED A SPECIAL CARE. WHERE SHOULD I GO TO HEAL? I NEED YOUR ADVICE
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  • its normal, you had a traumatic experience. just try to learn from the past. not everyone you crush on is automatically an asshole, try to get to know someone by slow pace and never be alone with him until you feel safe and comfortable
    try to find out more about him trought social media and by asking other people to be able to judge his character
    you can always try to get professional psychological help

    • He is fine person but good reputation too. He is shy person too. Psychological help? I never considered that. I will set an appointment ! Thanks for the advice I need a professional help because they fews people that knows my situation told me to that times will heal me. 9 years wasn't enough either I will get appointment this Thursday

    • good luck! :)

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