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Let me begin by saying I love my husband dearly. You may think that's not possible but it's true. I cannot imagine being married to anyone but him. With that, over the last two years, I've had oral sex with nine different men. My husband is unaware this is occurring.
A little background on me: I was overweight most of my life (now I'm what is labeled "curvy", or as my husband says is "perfect"). As such I didn't have any attention from men until I lost some weight my senior year of college, and then I didn't date because I was too busy trying to graduate. It wasn't until my next year at 24 working on my masters when I met my soon to be husband that I actually had my first date, first kiss, and first sexual encounter. Until a few years ago all sexual activity in my life came through him, and I loved it. I loved exploring myself with him and through him. I loved learning about myself and about him as we did it together.
I also was crazy about the fact that he was crazy about me. I spent the vast majority of my life feeling very ugly and unwanted. Although I was always told I was cute, it was always met with "if you lost thirty-forty pounds". It made me feel worthless. But then he shows up - tall, great hair, beautiful smile, broad shoulders. And he is chasing ME, not the other way around. He pampers me, treats me wonderfully, and the love and desire he has for me is evident whenever I look into his eyes. It's no wonder our sex life is off the charts.
Things changed several years ago. My husband's father was diagnosed with brain cancer. This floored my husband. His father was everything to him; he was his best man at our wedding, his baseball coach for most of his life, and essentially his best friend forever. Everyday he would go to the house to help his mother before and after work. It drained him, mentally and physically, and took a toll on our marriage. Our sex life suffered. We went from 5-6 nights a week (really. Most think I'm lying but this is a fact) to once every two weeks at best. I missed the sex, I missed the intimacy. I missed HIM.
I made a bad decision that changed my life. I was at the grocery store during this ordeal. A man was following me. It was noticeable because he was going down the same aisles I was yet his cart only had one item in it. He was a good looking man, mid to late fifties, and I smiled at him. He struck up a conversation and we talked the rest of my shopping, with him by my side the entire way. He didn't buy anything, just kept walking and talking with me. It felt wonderful.
We walked out and he asked for my number. I have him a fake one, and thought I'd never see him again. But when we made it outside , it was pouring down rain. He grabbed my cart and said his car was parked up front, we can put my groceries in there until the rain goes away. Then he ran off. I followed and in minutes we were both sitting in his SUV wet, laughing. It only took a few seconds before he moved in to kiss me. After some making out and heavy petting he wanted to go back to his place for sex. I knew I didn't want to do that, I couldn't do that to my husband, but I did want to please him. So I unzipped his pants and gave him a blow job.
I felt so alive and amazing. When we finished he helped me pack my groceries into my car, kissed me deeply in the parking lot like he was my lover, then squeezed my butt and said he'd call me. Of course he couldn't , and I never saw him again.
But the rush, the excitement, I knew I wanted to do that again! And the orgasm I felt when I went home and masturbated was almost out of this world! So I have. I've done it many different times with many different men. One man , I guess you can say is a steady, I've met four times . And he's the only one I've let finger me.
Things have returned to normal with my husband. His father passed, and he resumed his normal life. Our sex life is back to normal levels somewhat, but that hasn't stopped me from seeing other men for oral. It's such a tempting treat. I know many of you will think negatively of me. That's your right I suppose. But I've found something that was missing, and I don't want to let it go.
What Girls & Guys Said
31 51Are you expecting some kind of validation for this?
Your husband's father was terminally ill, and you were sneaking around sucking cocks behind his back?
Not surprised you went anon.
Typical woman. And I love how she makes herself out to be the victim (I felt neglected). That's also typical.
@Barrabus_the_Free Gotta disagree with you there, mate. I don't think this is typical at all. Fucked up is what it is. Vast majority of women would never behave like this.
well... is your husband happy with how things are? he hasn't noticed any difference in your behavior... at all? I don't know... maybe i'm being naive, but i would have thought that meeting these others guys would have... changed how you interact with your husband. on some level.
... And then women complain that men aren't marrying anymore
God... I kind of want to live the bachelor lifestyle forever...
And when the thrill of blowing guys is gone, the next thrill will be to fuck.
I know a few women that were fat most of their lives, and than lost weight and started to get attention. I have seen most of them lose all respect for themselves, and destroy marriages and friendships over a bit of attention. Then when they get over the thrill of the attention, most look back and realize what they gave up was worth more than the thrill sex they had.
It just gets me how cheaters can say they love their partners, are happy with their marriage and sex lives and can not see themselves with anyone else, yet over and over again go out and cheat on and abuse the trust of that person they swear they love and would never hurt.
Ohh come on easy on the fat chics. I used to be a fat chic but got guys numbers anyways and now I'm thin skinny but doesn't mean Il cheat on my partner. When I was fat I wasn't insecure or maybe that's not how everyone else feels? But still...
@HoneyButterCup525 I am not saying all fat girls, go off the deep end when they lose weight. I know girls that lost weight, and it did not change them. I know a few fat girls that are super confident, and have never let being big stop them from having fun and enjoying their sexuality. But I also know girls that were fat and were insecure, that than lost weight and started to get attention from guys that at one time would not give them the time of day and seen them go off the deep end and throw away marriages and relationships. Than when the new girl in town shine ends, they are left with nothing but a list of thrill sex one night stands.
Ok you opinion is valid but I'm gonna do a mytake on this fat chic thing lol.
Hence why you should never date fat, ex-fat, and deeply insecure women, because they'll always look for other men in order to gain validation, that validation they've craved all their lives.
I love the fact you started with "I love my husband" lmao no, it's not gonna change our opinions, you still are... well, can't say it without getting this removed XD
I don't know for sure if you're trolling or not, but still, I stand behind my comment: don't date fat, ex-fat, and extremely insecure.
hey I'm fat, and extremely insecure, lucky my boyfriend doesn't think like you...
@JhonnyMA You're a dude, so I don't care. It's different.
I'm kidding bro, you were saying it against her, but it is not a rule...
Ooh now I get it
@JhonnyMA You're right too there are some exceptions
I don't think she loves him. If she did, she'd care if she hurt him...
@SteppingOnRoses Does that thing exists?
@independentman I think it does
How would you like it if your husband was giving women oral?
Are you going to get STD tested?
Words absolutely fail me you bitch.
The million dollar question is, how would you react if you found out your husband was doing the same thing?
Throw a tantrum. Cry. She would be a victim and she would steal half his earnings and his kids. She would do this even knowing she's cheated on him.
So what's gonna happen next?
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Lol, you give decent women a bad name. Even if you're making this shit up.
I wish I could upvote this 3 times more!
You're actually disgusting.. who does that to their husband ESPECIALLY when his father is so ill and he's going through so much family stress? It's time like these where your love is really tested and clearly YOU FAILED. You couldn't honour your husband, respect your husband, stay loyal to your husband nor be there with him by his side every step of the way. You've broken pretty much every marriage vow and I really hope your husband finds out. He deserves so much better than your trashy ass.
The moment you said you loved your husband... I loss faith in you. If you loved your husband, there would be no stepping outside the marriage. You honestly are everything that's wrong with cheaters and bad relationships. You made a commitment to this man and you have the NERVE to say after TWO years you needed to go to another man!
I hope your husband finds out about all of this and leaves you. You're not deserving of someone loving you and being committed to you. People like you honestly make me so upset.
Often when a woman saves her first for marriage this happens. What shouldn't happen is you should not continue this marriage. You have found yourself sexually, and want to explore it. It's your life and have to make that choice. But you don't love your husband because you don't respect him. Even if you are super selfish to betray this man you care about is selfish and wrong. Your husband came back, but you were already gone. When it gets tough again it will only get worse for you. This is what's wrong with so many women these days, life self entitlement and no conscience. Stop it now, maybe don't even tell him. But you don't get to keep him and have your cake and eat it too on the side. If you love him let him go cause you're already gone...
Sounds like you got married too early, and didn't explore your sexuality enough beforehand. Probably because of your weight (although I've known some chubby girls that were getting it in sexually!)
This is why sexual liberation is good for men and women. You could have been exploring her sexual fetish for giving strangers oral sex earlier in college or even in high school, when single. But instead you waited until you were married to start doing this, which is no bueno.
typical unfortunately..
If you loved your husband you would have never done this at all. If you loved your husband you will tell him the truth and divorce him.
But... I'm betting that you do not love your husband and will cuckold him until he finds out on his own. No doubt when you give him some disease.
If there is a god, or justice, in this universe you will suffer for eternity for this deception and betrayal and you will deserve every single second of it.
I'm think this history is fake, you just want to be famous on the internet, probably a guy, but if it's not, you are the worst kind of person in the world, and you even did it when your husband was passing through a bad time, you're a cheater, the lamest person ever, betrayer, YOU HAVE THE COURAGE TO SAY YOU LOVE HIM... you could do anything, talk to your husband, go to a psychologist, if your sexual life is so important, you could even brake up with him, but you've chosen to betray him... may be, the porn industry have something for you... but no, even they wouldn't want a person like you...
Not going to rush to judgement on you here, there's plenty that will do that. But you do realise what your "tempting treat" might cost you.
I've know a few married women, devoted to their husbands, yet they needed that something, that extra thrill in their lives. Always happy to go back to the hubby after having their needs satisfied. Your husband woke something in you that lay dormant for most of your single life. He's not to blame, your previous lonely experience has a lot to do with it. You love the attention the new you has brought you, it makes you feel sexy and alive, but it's dangerous. Both for you and your marriage. How you have managed to keep this just to BJs is something to your credit. But it won't stay that way. The temptation will be to great, the more you do this, and get away with it.
Do you ever open up with your husband as to your fantasies, we all have them, and women's are far richer than men's ever will be. It might be a way to broach the subject with your husband without ever admitting your guilt.
See what he says, put what you're doing as a fantasy to him. See how he reacts. That will tell you how this will effect him. He might even enjoy it.
" over the last two years, I've had oral sex with nine different men" after that sentence nothing you say really mattered to me , you excuses or whatever it didn't matter.
you are a hoe simply put, you are the pump and dump girl i just feel sorry for your husband , he sounds wonderful but ended up with a slut, such a shame.
Solipsism on full display. Without shame. This is what we've come to today.
Ok first of all you are very weired and seconde for some reason fat some are getting bad names out of this topic.