Sexual Relationships 
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Let me begin by saying I love my husband dearly. You may think that's not possible but it's true. I cannot imagine being married to anyone but him. With that, over the last two years, I've had oral sex with nine different men. My husband is unaware this is occurring.
A little background on me: I was overweight most of my life (now I'm what is labeled "curvy", or as my husband says is "perfect"). As such I didn't have any attention from men until I lost some weight my senior year of college, and then I didn't date because I was too busy trying to graduate. It wasn't until my next year at 24 working on my masters when I met my soon to be husband that I actually had my first date, first kiss, and first sexual encounter. Until a few years ago all sexual activity in my life came through him, and I loved it. I loved exploring myself with him and through him. I loved learning about myself and about him as we did it together.
I also was crazy about the fact that he was crazy about me. I spent the vast majority of my life feeling very ugly and unwanted. Although I was always told I was cute, it was always met with "if you lost thirty-forty pounds". It made me feel worthless. But then he shows up - tall, great hair, beautiful smile, broad shoulders. And he is chasing ME, not the other way around. He pampers me, treats me wonderfully, and the love and desire he has for me is evident whenever I look into his eyes. It's no wonder our sex life is off the charts.
Things changed several years ago. My husband's father was diagnosed with brain cancer. This floored my husband. His father was everything to him; he was his best man at our wedding, his baseball coach for most of his life, and essentially his best friend forever. Everyday he would go to the house to help his mother before and after work. It drained him, mentally and physically, and took a toll on our marriage. Our sex life suffered. We went from 5-6 nights a week (really. Most think I'm lying but this is a fact) to once every two weeks at best. I missed the sex, I missed the intimacy. I missed HIM.
I made a bad decision that changed my life. I was at the grocery store during this ordeal. A man was following me. It was noticeable because he was going down the same aisles I was yet his cart only had one item in it. He was a good looking man, mid to late fifties, and I smiled at him. He struck up a conversation and we talked the rest of my shopping, with him by my side the entire way. He didn't buy anything, just kept walking and talking with me. It felt wonderful.
We walked out and he asked for my number. I have him a fake one, and thought I'd never see him again. But when we made it outside , it was pouring down rain. He grabbed my cart and said his car was parked up front, we can put my groceries in there until the rain goes away. Then he ran off. I followed and in minutes we were both sitting in his SUV wet, laughing. It only took a few seconds before he moved in to kiss me. After some making out and heavy petting he wanted to go back to his place for sex. I knew I didn't want to do that, I couldn't do that to my husband, but I did want to please him. So I unzipped his pants and gave him a blow job.
I felt so alive and amazing. When we finished he helped me pack my groceries into my car, kissed me deeply in the parking lot like he was my lover, then squeezed my butt and said he'd call me. Of course he couldn't , and I never saw him again.
But the rush, the excitement, I knew I wanted to do that again! And the orgasm I felt when I went home and masturbated was almost out of this world! So I have. I've done it many different times with many different men. One man , I guess you can say is a steady, I've met four times . And he's the only one I've let finger me.
Things have returned to normal with my husband. His father passed, and he resumed his normal life. Our sex life is back to normal levels somewhat, but that hasn't stopped me from seeing other men for oral. It's such a tempting treat. I know many of you will think negatively of me. That's your right I suppose. But I've found something that was missing, and I don't want to let it go.
What Girls & Guys Said
31 51You don't deserve your husband. You don't deserve the man who cared for and loved you after all this time, because you went and fucked it up. You betrayed him. Your relationship is on a string now.
Whores is what's wrong with this world and sadly your one of many. I hope this is just to get people talking and this idea isn't real. Very selfish and shitty thing too do to someone if your not happy end it properly.
*neck roll* GURL PUHLEEEAZE!
You r husband is not enough for you, this incident would happen again and again as i feel you need more than him.
Wow... you should have talked to your husband about what he was dealing with his father's death and how you were feeling sexual deprived.
I can't say that much bc i cheated on my boyfreind but it was only once. And also i am only 14... How old are you? The behavior no matter anything at all, if u want to do that talk to ur husband about it. I just can't even say anything to smooth it over. That's just terrible !!!
It's not a good idea'
So you use to be fat and now that gives you the right to be fucking cheating scum? Girl... your poor husband deserves so much better than you.
His father had cancer and because your sex life dropped down, you just start randomly sucking dicks? You are very selfish, inconsiderate, and you don't love him. The ONLY reason that I hope you don't catch anything is so that your husband doesn't get STD from you.
Having been in a similar situation I ended up spending time talking to my ex and one thing let to another and we ended up having sex. I felt hugely liberated at the time but the guilt that followed was immense and I regret my actions.
Not a good idea.
Nothing wrong with that. Spread the love.
you are a cheater! if you want fun then don't marry
At first I thought this might be a troll. But then I thought about feminism and how marriage is shot to hell. It may be real guys.
If this is real, you need to stop! You could get an STD or end up attached to the guy you're seeing also he might get attached and stalk you.
Do these men even know you're married? You obviously still have some self esteem issues because you're looking for attention outside of your marriage. You should not feel the need to please a stranger's sexual desire!
Maybe you married based on the physical and sexual attraction. That's all you seemed to talk about when you mentioned him. What about his personality? What about that attracted you to him? I bet those other men you're seeing don't have that or you don't know until you get to know them.
If anything I've learned to be cautious. I'm similar to you; early 20s in college no guys like me enough to chase and date me. I've never kisses or anything. I want to focus on my studies but also I've felt ugly. One of my fears is being with only one guy because my thoughts might wander to how's it like with other guys. I want to wait til marriage for sex but if I'm with only one guy there's nothing to compare him to and that's good but I might wonder if better is out there. Then again what is better? Sure the other guy who's not my husband might give better sex, but I bet he doesn't care and love me that much.
Sex isn't everything it's the icing on the cake. Why share something so precious with strange men esp when your husband was going through a trying time in his life. Yeah you maybe have felt abandoned but you could have looked elsewhere for attention and validation. Some things include reconnecting with old friends, family or hobbies you love.
I'm not sure if you should tell your husband but you should definitely stop cheating. Would it be ok if your husband was cheating on you? Well the times get tough you're supposed to be there for each other not flee running to the arms of another!
And really you're foolish, can't you see these strange men don't like/want you they just want to use your body for sex! Your husband loves you for more than your body and sex... or at least I hope.
Yeah
Honestly I am very happy for u.. I wish I could do that and get the courage.. coz my marriage is Just out of commitment at least to me and I don't get any from him.. may be incense in a few months that too I have to remind him.. I wish I could leave him but I am a coward.. way to go sister.. keepnur life happy no one Weill ever understand what u go through..
Is that really how you think "and since" is spelled? Moron.
If your marriage is not all right you HAVE to talk to your husband, in my country you don't get anything from braking up if you cheated... and i think is well deserved...
Dont bitch about your marriage life here. DIVORCE!
Your a selfish whore end you fucken marriage if your not happy like fuck!
If you did this, you need to go get tested and make sure you didn't catch some disease and shit. Because if you did catch one and wasn't aware and passed it onto your husband, then you'd be one irresponsible and inconsiderate. It's already bad enough that you cheated on your husband already and still have desire to keep cheating because you had developed an addiction to the excitement of cheating.
This is the definition of a SLUT.
Your husband doesn't know anything about this at all?
I hope your husband finds out.