Sexual Relationships 
Sexual Health Trigger warning, I am a monster?
Anonymous
Hi there, I'm adding a trigger warning because I don't know what's going on with me. I am against r@pe, pedophilia and anything to do with S. A. But whenever I watch a documentary or a video about it I get a weird sensation in my private area. Like I'm getting turned on by what they are talking about. I feel like such a monster, and I don't know what to do. This stuff that happens to these kids and people are fucking awful and I get horrible thoughts in my head but I try to get them out. I don't know if it's intrusive thoughts? But it happens a lot and I try to ignore it. I just wanna be normal? I'm 24 and I'm a Virgin not really experienced sexually. I think about sex A LOT. But I don't wanna make excuses for myself. I have a domination kink but that's all. Why am I a horrible person? I do have high levels of functioning anxiety.
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You guys are probably gonna think crazy.. I just wanna be normal.
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I hate to think I'm experiencing arousal with this shit.
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What Girls & Guys Said
7 21You are just super horny due to your virginity. I get turned on by the slightest thing as I am a virgin as well.
It's normal to feel strongly against people being abused against their will in real life, but it's also fairly common to have a rape fantasy. You are not abnormal. It's not wrong to have feelings for both - hate for the real thing and arousal from the fantasy. You may be a person that will enjoy including role playing in your repertoire when you become sexually active and it doesn't mean you condone real-life sexual abuse.
Great post. Very imaginative. Troll
oh my gosh im literally the same exact way... like no joke, everything you said is literally me. i'm so against all that stuff but i have watched lots of documentaries about that stuff and when the people are describing that stuff i get a little bit turned on. I don't know..
fuck.. u can dm me and we can talk about it
See, not so 'sick' or weird, as I told her also