Watching porn with my boyfriend brought us closer

[Anonymous]

Not going to lie, i was one of those girls who hated their guy watching porn. When i was younger it felt like cheating, as i have grown to use porn myself i realised porn is a common thing. it's nothing to be scared of so long as your guy still has sex with you often and cares for you.

i once caught my boyfriend mid bathroom break during the night and he was knocking one off to porn but he was so scared to admit that he did it even though i saw.

I was super insecure at the start of the relationship so this made me worse. i blocked porn from my internet and started getting paranoid every time he went to the toilet (though i wouldn't let him know this) it would eat me up inside.

something so common and silly was making me super depressed and got me paranoid about other things. kind of like a domino affect. it pushed him away from me. he became more closed off, and wanted to spend less time with me.
one night i thought me and my guy had an alright night, but when he got back home he hardly spoke to me or came online. almost like he was avoiding me. my whole demeanour was pushing him away. the atmosphere when we hung out was awkward, almost like being on edge all the time.

so that night i realised i can't force this dude to like me, chicks are everywhere and no matter who i'm with, where i am there will always be someone out there better than me. but he chose me, for whatever reason he did.

i was sick of feeling so defeated over something so stupid. so i slowly and gradually shared/used porn with my boyfriend. it was probably the best thing i have ever done because it's brought us closer together. i have allowed porn usage in my house, i let him jerk off next to me to porn if he wakes up during the night, i let him chose the videos. Don't get me wrong.. sharing porn is very hot he wants to spend much more time with me, instead of rushing off he pro-longs the goodbyes. he texts more, and he's SO much more open than he used to be. it's become Comfortable and much more connected. something it wasn't before. The reason i know i can watch porn with my guy openly is because he still gropes me and includes me. One time i wanted to watch porn with him, and he just wanted to focus on me. he's respectful. that's how i know it's ok.

it sounds too good to be true me writing this but i'm hoping it might help someone in a similar position. Sometimes the most unexpected thing can make something work. i'm not saying this is the cure to all relationship problems. also not everyone will have a healthy relationship with porn so watch out for that one.

has anyone ever been through this or any input? please feel free