What it feels like to have a low sex drive

[Anonymous]

Sorry if my English is not perfect. I know many women want men to believe that they have a higher sex drive as men love women with high libidos. However as my sex drive lowered I started not to care about what guys think or whether I am attractive to them.

I had a very high sex drive. My sex drive was so high that I could come just from watching porn and imagining. I never ever even touched myself. I knew if I had a boyfriend and he touched my hair I would get aroused and even come. Let alone if he touched me down there. Lol

I thought I was not a normal person. No one I have ever met told me they felt the same way. At first I thought the reason why I am so excited about sex and intimacy is my virginity.I never had sex and had enormous amount of sexual desires that had never been fulfilled.

But the reason for my sexual drive was definitely my hormones.

The cause of my loss of sex drive was my diets. I rarely ate fruits and vegetables. I mostly ate chocolate (which lowers T level which I didn't knew at that time.

I didn't lose my sex drive immediately but steadily. It took four years for me to lose my interest in sex.

Year by year I felt less sexual desire.

When I had a high libido I always wondered how can women not to have sex even when they are not into that mood. You can use lube and do it for him. But now I understand that I can't even give my man (if I ever have one) a handjob.

Not that I am disgusted but that I don't have any desire for doing something that doesn't appeal me. Although I doubt any guy would want to date or marry a woman with no sex drive. And I don't even find the idea of dating and marriage exciting as I did years ago.

I want to tell you the causes of low sex drive and how it affects my life

1) depression

Nothing makes me happy. Not internet, not hanging out. I don't have hobbies anymore.I really want to be happy but I can't. I force myself to enjoy other things in life but I realize that depresssion and anxiety are not my choice. They come withing me without a reason.

And I get angry most of the time and many things make me anxious.

2) no energy

I want to sleep or just lay in my bed most of the day and whatever I do I tire very easily

3) introversion

Like I said I don't feel like hanging out or going outside. I rarely talk to my friends or my aquaintances

4) sensitive

I cry and get offended easily

5) no desire for dating and marriage

Love was my biggest dream now I have no interest in romance

6) no interest in guys

I haven't met a guy whom I would find attractive after losing my sex drive.

7) no interest in my looks

I don't even like buying clothes or wearing make up,. I don't care what I look like

8) hairloss

I lost the half of my hair

9) lack of carriage/confidence

I am very indicisive and think I can't do a job or some work

10) no interst in having kids. Having kids was something I desired the most. I even had a pregnancy fetish

My testosterone level is low almost non existant but my estrogen level (estrogen is the female sex hormone) is HIGHER than average. This made me think that men are more sexual than women because they have a higher level of testosterone. If estrogen had that much effect on female libido I would at least feel some sexual desires as my estrogen leven is really high.

My life has become so dull and colorless. I am not depressed because I can't get aroused but because my Testosterone level causes depression. It affects on my mood and health. Now I know that having a low drive is not healthy

To all the sexual people embrace your sexual desires.They are the rhythm of life. Life is a Hell without them.