Why am I a monster?

I was watching a documentary on a girl leaving a satanic cult and she was talking about being raped and sexually assaulted.

I had to stop watching it. Was so awful.

But I got this weird sensation in my lady bits while she was talking about the sexual abuse. What's wrong with me? Like am I a monster that secretly likes this? Wtf... I feel like such an awful person. I turned it off because I couldn't watch anymore of it. Was too much for me. Especially the part where she said her GRANDMA had her have sex with animals. My heart broke for her.
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  • no your not a monster, you turned off and had remorse for the girl and what had happened to her.

    however i do believe that you may have got a little excited over the thought of some guy dominating you. thats a pretty common kink for some ladies, where they want to be dominated, however there is a difference between being dominated and rape. to be dominated, you are consensual and willing, its just you have no control over the dominants next move or thoughts however as a submissive you have the ability to say no and thats the main difference at any point in time you can say no and its over.

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  • It’s weird what our brains respond to and how they respond.

    both Shock and Revulsion can cause our brains to release chemicals which are similar to those used for pleasure.

    This can have weird effect on our bodies on how we respond to visual images and audio.

    it’s a bit like how some like their toes sucked and others find it repulsive, it’s not the fault of the toe lover, it’s down to messed up wiring in the brain, as genitals are next to feet in the brains ordering of things.

    Same with Endorphins, these are opiates for the brain, released during pleasure but also fear and pain (both of which can be physical and emotional). Our brain gets a blast of opiate and sends out its signals to the body, which then responds.

    Some people get turned on during really stressful events, some of which are bizarre, I know been there lol

    • Thanks for MHG

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  • Interestingly enough, you can actually feel a tingling sensation or a clench in your groin area when seeing something uncomfortable - its similar to the idea of our stomachs turning when upset. Just another way the body randomly reacts to things

  • Stop kink shaming yourself. You like BDSM and CNC. Congrats! You are one step closer to the perfect sex life

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  • we can't choose everything we find sexually arousing and its not like you wasn't appalled by what she went through so i guess it was just a fantasy, never would want it to happen for real, kinda thing

  • No, you are totally normal. I'm skeptical about the "satanic cult". Satanic cults aren't real. Where did you see this?

    • YouTube

    • I study Demonology, and they do infact Exist.

  • I think it just turned you on. It doesn't make you a monster.

  • Were you sexually abused?

  • There is a distinct separation of your Conscious self and your Sub Conscious self. You share your body with the sub Conscious.

  • think you're just horny

    • Yeah I'm 24 and haven't had sex.

    • yeah, that's probably it, i think you're just horny. doesn't really matter what it was. i bet you'd get wet to just about anything that talks about sex

    • Yeah I think so. I fantasize about sex ALL day

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  • Coz you are so horny.

  • Having a rape fantasy and being a monster are two very different things.
    You felt horrible for the girl right? Than you are not a monster.

  • this seems pretty normal with girls i talk to. I think you will be fine

  • Different things turn us on, go with it

  • usually this kind of thing triggers our side of fantasies... I don't think it's serious... feeling isn't the problem... the problem would be consenting

  • satan is the ruler of this world