Why do I have this guilt or 'I don't want anyone to please me' after Masturbation?

[hiddendevil]

Its been more than a week since masterbated, there is this girl who offered me some good time 'ahem' this weekend, no strings attached, i had a quick masterbation after what she said, after 3 days.
After the process was over, i felt like denying her and cancelling her plans for the makeout, I felt that it would be a drag coz this pleasure is just for a short time, and just one time isn't/never enough.
Why is there such guilt? Why do my moods swings often?

P. S: i fap coz she sent some nudes.
Also P. S: I love sex.
But also P. S: why this guilt?

Share me some opinions.

[wankiam]

is it cultural? aren't indians raised to see masturbation and sex outside of marriage as bad? that would explain the guilt maybe but as a westerner where both are no longer taboo subjects, i can only really guess

[hiddendevil]

Its not a culture, people judge too often in india, and there is a hypocritic orthodox society, but that doesn't mean any parent would allow such things knowingly, we have to hide such things from our parents ofc. Sex outside marraige or pre-marital sex are considered as a crime here not legally but as a society pov. In short people start calling them pimps and whores. Why I do, its my choice of living. But my upbringing never taught such things. So that's not a guilt what i meant. What i meant was, if you jerk once, and after that how you feel? that its some temporary pleasure and not helping you in anything. Sorry if its confusing, coz i'm really confused rn.

[wankiam]

well to me thats the definition of cultural difference... western culture doesn't have the same societal values in general and like i said, sex outside of marriage is commonplace as is masturbation so guilt isn't so common.

[Anonymous]

because your inner body is a good guy. your body and mind telling you to not hurt girl

[hiddendevil]

But the girl will not get hurt by a one-time thing too, she insisted and she invited. And she is also a virgin. Anyway shall i deny her? I mean i'm excited and confused at the same time. A Gemini thing. :(

[Opinion Owner]

a gemini has nothing to do. lol. i hate star signs.. well.. ask yourself seriously. in religion it's not good. but for someone who doesn't care about religion, won't care. I'm not religious but Im trying to listened to religion rules as long as I don't across the line. my imagination is wild, I touch myself when thinking him, but still Im afraid to have him since Im afraid end up with wrong person. some people say, guys won't touch the girl if he's a really good person until marriage.

[hiddendevil]

This declares that i'm not a good person after all coz i'm not a first timer. If I think today about her invitation, i'm excited. But just in case i jerked off again, there is guilt. Should i be waiting for the day to come or should I cancel, so confusing. I might had sex 100s times but at the end of day. I feel messed up.

[Opinion Owner]

well as I said. it's up to you. i love God. I feel like he's watching me. so I would feel bad when i did wrong. so Im trying to not do bad things. it's your body, you should think about you. no one can help you

[hiddendevil]

Thanks for your opinion. I'm going hell. Haha.