I want to confess anonymously that I might be sick in the head. Why do I get turned on by interracial porn if I am racist?

[Anonymous]

This isn't a trolling question. You need to first listen to what happened to me a while ago. I was with someone (my ex is white like me) for three years then a girl (Asian) came into my relationship. I feel embarrassed saying it but she took him, she posted Instagram photos of each other and all that other bullshit. I felt betrayed. I am from a city where there is the most Asians and I see Asian female and white male couples often.
I get pissed off sometimes because I am reminded of what happened. I now find myself doing sick things in private. I go to pornhub and type in "Asian" and it is white male and Asian female galore with lots of videos and millions of views. I am turned on by that. I have no idea why. The first time I saw a video like this was by accident. It feels like I'm on a roller coaster of emotions. I feel sad, mad and turned on all at once. I see white males as a Disney prince because I grew up watching that. I made it into my mind that white female and white male was only normal. I have orgasmic sensations watching this type of porn. I grew up watching these movies of Disney prince and just seeing another girl from another race handle a white guy like that makes me feel a certain guilty pleasure... I am disgusted with myself afterwards and I delete my history right away after seeing videos.
So what is wrong with me?

[iseekpinetrees]

Its just your kink and what ur into porn wise. Its normal to be disgusted with yourself after you've orgasmed your emotions go back to normal and you stop thinking irrational.

[Bootyliscious]

Because opposites attract...

[AustinMan]

You're not a racist. You have a fetish shared by a lot of us. Is it on configuration like black on white? Just curious. That's mine.

[Zannika02]

I think everyone has their own racial preferences as far as attraction. I think u find both white and Asians attractive hence why u let girl in to begin with. Maybe u think u should hate them but u dont really u are just bitter about what happened which u have every right to be... but ultimately still find both attractive

[Asker]

I hate those females. I would say more but I don't speak on why. The reason why I was into it was because after he left me. I started imagining what sex was like between them. Now I know. Many Asians and white guys actually obsess over each other so the sex is often chaotic and orgasmic. I'm into the sex part but not really at the same time like I said. I feel disgusted after and I delete my history and pretend I never saw it.

[Asker]

I was turned on by imagining the sex part between my ex and his new girlfriend. She is really pretty but I still hate her. I did some things and said things I am not proud of on my social media acccounts

[Zannika02]

Have u tried other interracial porn see if it has same affect?

[Asker]

Yeah I've seen but grossed out by anything else honestly.

[hellionthesagereborn]

Your using this as a weird coping mechanism. You feel like your not good enough and that is fueling your anger but its also become a taboo and do to its sexual nature that has fuzed itself with your emotional state creating this weird sexual fantasy. I'd suggest talking to a psychiatrist as they would be better able to explain the situation and help you move past it. This isn't uncommon (the trauma leading to weird sexual fetishes that is), but it is something that if you don't deal with it can adversley effect your life.

[1love2hearts]

Because it's "bad" or against your "rules"

[chriscdi]

i dont think you are racist, maybe just confused because you dont seem to really hate them, you just want to hate them, maybe its how you were raised or maybe ita just a grudge you hold towards an individual of the same race, the world would never know but you do

[magiusX26]

sounds like your a cuckquean (female cuckhold)

[crmoore]

I don't mean this in a rude way (people use it as an insult, kind of like "that's gay" but there's nothing wrong with liking what we like), but there's a chance you may be a cuckqueen. I'd suggest looking into it.

[BjornIronPeenus]

You like seeing white men dominate other races I don't know lol?

[Asker]

There's a video of a girl pulling a white guys dick to the bed... it's like both ways.

[BjornIronPeenus]

I don't know maybe because it's something different than the usual white on white porn.

[Valnac]

You know what makes you wet.

[AFellowWeeb]

You are a female cuckold
Which people do you think that watch interracial black man/white woman porn, besides black men?
White male cuckolds

[Yourman89]

Thats pretty hot lol

[Anonymous]

Porn makes you think weird things and that's why it makes a lot of money. Getting turned on by a feeling of inferiority is weird. Maybe it is supposed to happen if your mind gets wrecked by porn. Getting betrayed by your ex emotionally hurt you and that feeling mixed with porn made you like things you don't like normally. Porn can make feel good, bad or mix of both. It's just how it works. You need to get over your ex and then stop getting pissed of by interracial couples and understand that interracial is just as normal as intraracial.
I was a porn addict and was mostly addicted to porn featuring very well endowed male and white or Latina women. It was because of my own insecurities. I thought (or maybe still think that) big dicks are better and I am mostly attracted to white girls and Latinas. So big dicks with white/Latina girls made feel insecure and somehow porn used that against me. I got out of the addiction after learning to accept myself.

I've observed many people get addicted to a certain category of porn because of their own insecurities or something like that. Maybe that's what happening to you.
Again stop getting pissed of with interracial. It's totally normal.

[Anonymous]

Many white guys have their top racial preference as Latina or Asian these days and if they're with any other race and a Latina or Asian comes along, they will cheat for sure. So it's better to not date such guys

[Asker]

Lol majority of white people marry within their own race.

[Opinion Owner]

Ya but marriage is different than love and sexual preference. And cheating happens in marriage too. If you marry such a guy and if a hot Latina comes and seduces your hubby, he will drop his pants and fuck the shit out of her and he will come back in the evening as a good hubby to you. He will come back to you at the end of the day

[Asker]

That's not true. Only about 17% of those interracial marriages are between white and Asians. The other 83% is actually Asian and Asian marrying each other. I just feel jealous because the relationships between them. They have the lowest divorce rates and are the most common interracial marriage. I honestly am not attracted to other guys. I only like to date guys of my own race.

[Asker]

You make it seem like Asians are stealing all the white guys. Absolutely not!!

[Asker]

Watch it fully.

https://youtu.be/f_p-I9fdyV4

[Opinion Owner]

Wait i thought the most common was white guy latina girl Anyway i am just saying that this is a possibility. The guy you might date will not be racist like you

[Opinion Owner]

Asians or latinas aren't stealing anyone. I am saying that most white guys have a fetsish for them and if given the chance they will take it I ain't watching it

[Asker]

He talks about latinas also in the video. You will see how Asians are a smaller minority

[Anonymous]

Just because you're opposed to interracial relationships doesn't mean you're racist. You just like to see whites with whites.
I think you might have cuckold fetish and for whatever reason it turns you on to see your ex turned on by this Asian girl. And seeing white men fucking Asian girls makes you think of your ex, which turns you on.

I know, because I'm the same way. If my crush has a boyfriend or different type, I get turned on by the thought of her being with that man and being turned on, or I try to imagine myself as her dream guy.

And sometimes I'll watch porn with scenes that remind me of girls I know personally.

I don't like white girls with non white men, but I like white guys with non white girls because I imagine myself in that position, though I don't really like seeing them with black or Asian girls, but sometimes it turns me on and I'll watch porn of it and also feel guilty afterwards. But I think it mainly turns me because those girls are attracted to white men and it boosts my ego. And I imagine them wanting to be with ME because I'm white.

Sorry if I confused you, but I don't know how else to explain it

[Anonymous]

You have a cuck fantasy. You have two options
1. Find a guy who is willing to fulfill these fantasies
2. Find a guy who is not attracted to Asian females


1 is probably the most fun. Life is too short to live a boring life. 2 is more secure. You can be certain he wouldn't do what your last boyfriend did.

[Anonymous]

Look up "keni styles" for porn. Let me know what you think.