Sexual Relationships 
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Let me begin by saying I love my husband dearly. You may think that's not possible but it's true. I cannot imagine being married to anyone but him. With that, over the last two years, I've had oral sex with nine different men. My husband is unaware this is occurring.
A little background on me: I was overweight most of my life (now I'm what is labeled "curvy", or as my husband says is "perfect"). As such I didn't have any attention from men until I lost some weight my senior year of college, and then I didn't date because I was too busy trying to graduate. It wasn't until my next year at 24 working on my masters when I met my soon to be husband that I actually had my first date, first kiss, and first sexual encounter. Until a few years ago all sexual activity in my life came through him, and I loved it. I loved exploring myself with him and through him. I loved learning about myself and about him as we did it together.
I also was crazy about the fact that he was crazy about me. I spent the vast majority of my life feeling very ugly and unwanted. Although I was always told I was cute, it was always met with "if you lost thirty-forty pounds". It made me feel worthless. But then he shows up - tall, great hair, beautiful smile, broad shoulders. And he is chasing ME, not the other way around. He pampers me, treats me wonderfully, and the love and desire he has for me is evident whenever I look into his eyes. It's no wonder our sex life is off the charts.
Things changed several years ago. My husband's father was diagnosed with brain cancer. This floored my husband. His father was everything to him; he was his best man at our wedding, his baseball coach for most of his life, and essentially his best friend forever. Everyday he would go to the house to help his mother before and after work. It drained him, mentally and physically, and took a toll on our marriage. Our sex life suffered. We went from 5-6 nights a week (really. Most think I'm lying but this is a fact) to once every two weeks at best. I missed the sex, I missed the intimacy. I missed HIM.
I made a bad decision that changed my life. I was at the grocery store during this ordeal. A man was following me. It was noticeable because he was going down the same aisles I was yet his cart only had one item in it. He was a good looking man, mid to late fifties, and I smiled at him. He struck up a conversation and we talked the rest of my shopping, with him by my side the entire way. He didn't buy anything, just kept walking and talking with me. It felt wonderful.
We walked out and he asked for my number. I have him a fake one, and thought I'd never see him again. But when we made it outside , it was pouring down rain. He grabbed my cart and said his car was parked up front, we can put my groceries in there until the rain goes away. Then he ran off. I followed and in minutes we were both sitting in his SUV wet, laughing. It only took a few seconds before he moved in to kiss me. After some making out and heavy petting he wanted to go back to his place for sex. I knew I didn't want to do that, I couldn't do that to my husband, but I did want to please him. So I unzipped his pants and gave him a blow job.
I felt so alive and amazing. When we finished he helped me pack my groceries into my car, kissed me deeply in the parking lot like he was my lover, then squeezed my butt and said he'd call me. Of course he couldn't , and I never saw him again.
But the rush, the excitement, I knew I wanted to do that again! And the orgasm I felt when I went home and masturbated was almost out of this world! So I have. I've done it many different times with many different men. One man , I guess you can say is a steady, I've met four times . And he's the only one I've let finger me.
Things have returned to normal with my husband. His father passed, and he resumed his normal life. Our sex life is back to normal levels somewhat, but that hasn't stopped me from seeing other men for oral. It's such a tempting treat. I know many of you will think negatively of me. That's your right I suppose. But I've found something that was missing, and I don't want to let it go.
What Girls & Guys Said
31 51You should have talked with your husband about this issue
Marriage in the 21. st century! Need I say more?
Why am I not surprised?
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The downvotes are cheaters.
Sometimes I understand why people cheat. This is not one of those times.
I don't understand, you can talk to him, brake up, then you can do anything, even being a hooker, but betraying is unforgivable...
You can have all the fun stepping outside the marriage when you're in Hell. Satan loves this take.
You cheated on your husband during a time when he was in an emotional crisis? and you expect sympathy
"Let me begin by saying I love my husband dearly."
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"That's your right I suppose. But I've found something that was missing, and I don't want to let it go."
You remind me of a clip from Fargo, where a man explains that a fat woman is a sensualist. Because she is so given over to the senses (she shows this by having so clearly given over to the senses of taste) she has no loyalty.
Seems this clip has some real wisdom.
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Its one thing to have talked about it first and after the conversation about was said and done gotten the green light. What did happen was you cheated on your husband. Two things makes this worse. 1. You have done it more than once and not just with one guy. 2. One of them was stalking you. You act a
You act like your husband's dads death is nothing. You should have been there for him and still be there for him. He deserves better than you.
I feel sorry for you husband, and hope one day he finds out.
I'd like to see where that story goes
So piggy lost weight and become a ho? You don't love your hisbend. I jad a ex cheated on me once which I ended up finding out, all I will say is life has away to let. Bad deeds come out. You may be sucking some random guy dick on hos car or hitting on some guy at the store them your hisbend will walk back and see. I can't wait for that day to come when your back o. Gag asking everyone whay you caN do to save your relationship with your husband. Then we all tell you to fuck off
Well you fail to trigger me , may be try harder? : p
i really hope you are not a troll because this is just insane. Poor man , divorce him please if you love him.
Ok. so are you hoping to receive validation for this? I haven't read what anyone else has said yet but im sure a bunch of horny loser men are going to reassure you and make you believe you have a right to do anything you want life is short its liberating/empowering you go girl etc... hoping maybe they might get a piece themselves. Make no mistake you are a nasty piece of scum and I hope your husband is able to catch you and provide the court with evidence so you are unable to rob him when he divorces you. You probably have kids too and you willingly risk splitting up your marriage and inflicting psychological harm on your children because you're in secure about being fat and you need validation which you gain by sucking strangers off. Pathetic. You don't love your husband either. Period. You know what you would do if you loved him? You would have cared more about his suffering and agony he experienced when HIS FATHER DIED but no you made it all about yourself. You had the audacity to try and make yourself a victim during all this. Did it not cross your mind that maybe he doesn't feel like fucking your brains out because he has lost his father who at the end of the day is more important than his whore of a wife? Could you not wait? This is so typical y'all lose your mind if your man fails to make you the center of the universe for even one second. What are you even doing being married anyways? Go be a prostitute or stripper or something else that allows you to get strange men off so you can feel beautuful. I love how you spent the first half talking about how you are insecure about being fat and didn't get attention like YOU are the victim here not the man who's wife is sucking off strangers as he mourns his father's loss. This is exactly why Ill never be married ever. 60% of women admitted to a huge anonymous survey that they've cheated in their marraige. there's bound to be a percentage that couldn't admit it even to an anonymous survey so Im sure the real number is like 75%. Whats even more disgusting is after you get caught or whatever you will feel you are owed money he made while you sucked random guys off. I hope your story will help wake some men up and they will avoid marraige at all costs and see it for what it is. An institution for lazy whores to suck resources away from hard working men. This is what happens when you tell women anything and everything is morally relative and your happiness is more important than anything in life.
no need to say any more you have covered it all, well done
I am disappointed that woman like you live in the society who are not loyal.
I am disappointed that you make women like yourself to just be a deceiver
I am disappointed how you justified the whole act.
I hate woman like you. I really think that you are footprint to the all decent women in the society.
What you are doing is to promote women to hoe around in absence of their men just like you did.
I might get some criticism the way I am talking to you but I feel I dont give fuck to what you all at consensus are upto.
*Let me begin by saying I love my husband dearly*
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Regardless of what I think about this, what I love the most about this take is the reactions it's causing XD This is why I'm still on GaG
maybe me too :)
That's what the problem comes from... You wanna have fun, huh? Isn't your husband enough for you? Ever thought how'd he feel when he got to know bout this? One day or the other he'll got to know bout it and it'll tear him apart... He loves you so much and that's what you gave him in return? You don't love him. Actually, you don't know what love is. Had it been him instead of you then you'd know how it feels. I wanna curse you so much but I won't cause you'll get the fruit of your deeds someday😡😡😡
So why are you telling us?
Sounds like a confession.
So is her husband on GaG? We aren't priests.
Some people got to spill the beans to someone.
I wonder if she feels better now.
I think your experience is more common than most people would believe.
One of the worst trolls I've seen. As if you would give a blowjob to a guy you've only just met shopping.
Good job , i think your husband and all men who are stupid enough to get married really deserve to be treated that way lol