How do I confess to a priest when I'm so ashamed of my sins?
I envied people, I tried to hurt them. I've been ungrateful, I've questioned God's existence, I've had blasphemous thoughts about God, I've hated my dad and wished death upon him when I was younger. I've been a thief, I've talked shit about people I love to others online, I haven't listened to my parents, I have masturbated ever since I was 5 years old (Not anymore), I've been a manipulator and manipulated my siblings, I did witch craft and got tarot card readings (I watched these type of youtube videos where they say "Pick a card" and you know how it goes). I did love spells on a guy a liked, I pretty much saw him as a god, he was my main priority in life. I contacted a witch to cast a beauty spell on me because I was so insecure and I felt so ugly. (The spell didn't work though, it made me feel worse and it made me ever more depressed). And here are the sins I'm most scared of confessing. I used to watch porn when I was 10-13. A lot. Like A LOT.
I first came upon porn when I was 10. I came across a youtube video where there was two women who talked about oral sex, I didn't know what it was and didn't fully understand it, but I did masturbate to it since they kind of showed how it worked but with clothes on.
When I was younger (5-10) I used to masturbate while thinking about people making out or watching videos of people making out.
When I was a little older (12-13) I was too scared to watch humans having sex so I watched animations. It was furry porn and I watched horses and dogs mate.
Then I started to watch human porn, including lesbian porn. (I'm not lesbian or bisexual)
I've stopped doing all this and I've asked God for forgiveness, but I don't know how I'm going to tell the priest all this. I'm so ashamed, how am I going to do it face to face with him? And what if he throws me out of church? What am I gonna do then and what am I going to tell my parents?
I need help, I don't know what to do
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