This is a weird question. But I’m looking for some advice or maybe someone in a similar situation. I feel so gross every day, my face is ugly, My body isn’t attractive, I shower every day sometimes twice a day just incase I might smell. I can’t help feeling stupid for asking this. I just feel so alone. My boyfriend hates eating me out, and he doesn’t tough my vagina without me asking first, I feel like he is grossed out by my vagina. I’ve always been the ugly friend and my best friend has previously told me my “mouth grosses her out” . I’m tall and a UK10-12. I don’t look like other girls, I am disgusting. I tell people I feel insecure, my friends tell me I’m pretty, my family just laugh and say I look fine and my boyfriend says I’m gorgeous. I Know they lie to protect my feelings, I feel like I gross everyone out, especially with my vagina. I feel physically repulsive and I feel sorry for my boyfriend for having to be only with me. I’m so ashamed of my face and body. I never used to be as insecure as I have been in the last 5 years or so. I’m more looking for advice or a friend in this situation as I just want to talk to someone, Thankyou so much
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*he doesn’t touch my vagina not tough sorry for the typo
It's normal nobody likes how they look that much, I just go by nearly all gals seem attracted to me so I don't care.
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Younghungguy17Xper 6
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It sounds like your boyfriend doesn’t treat you well enough and might have issues of his own. I’m sure your vagina is sexy and he should want to touch it and eat you out. I’m sure you are being overly critical of yourself as many of us are. Perhaps some of your anxiety are from your boyfriends lack of sexual drive which is on him. As others have said it would be beneficial to talk to a councillor or specialist as they know best. But everything your experiencing is normal.
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wiljravenXper 2
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Get fucked u won't feel that way
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Anonymous
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You have to stop beating yourself up, this problem is in your mind, you create and feed it and its not going to go away until you stop seeing yourself this way and talking to yourself this way.
You make it appear to yourself as though this comes from outside of you but it doesn't, even if someone in the real world had said you were whatever when you continue it, when you repeat it, thats you, thats a choice that you are making.
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Anonymous
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We are often our harshest critics. As for your boyfriend he seems like a selfish lover. You should probably find someone who is more selfless. Plus you can't be that ugly you at least have a boyfriend. I don't even have a girlfriend; so you have to look better than me.
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Anonymous
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Welcome to the club.
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Anonymous
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I used to feel like that because i was around the wrong company of people. ... i think the right approach is to find yourself around people who love and cherish you
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Anonymous
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I would still fuck the absolute shit out of you
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CuteBarbielovexx
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You haven’t even seen me, I could be a monster lol! :)
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4 28It's normal nobody likes how they look that much, I just go by nearly all gals seem attracted to me so I don't care.
It sounds like your boyfriend doesn’t treat you well enough and might have issues of his own. I’m sure your vagina is sexy and he should want to touch it and eat you out. I’m sure you are being overly critical of yourself as many of us are. Perhaps some of your anxiety are from your boyfriends lack of sexual drive which is on him. As others have said it would be beneficial to talk to a councillor or specialist as they know best. But everything your experiencing is normal.
Get fucked u won't feel that way
You have to stop beating yourself up, this problem is in your mind, you create and feed it and its not going to go away until you stop seeing yourself this way and talking to yourself this way.
You make it appear to yourself as though this comes from outside of you but it doesn't, even if someone in the real world had said you were whatever when you continue it, when you repeat it, thats you, thats a choice that you are making.
We are often our harshest critics. As for your boyfriend he seems like a selfish lover. You should probably find someone who is more selfless. Plus you can't be that ugly you at least have a boyfriend. I don't even have a girlfriend; so you have to look better than me.
Welcome to the club.
I used to feel like that because i was around the wrong company of people. ... i think the right approach is to find yourself around people who love and cherish you
I would still fuck the absolute shit out of you
You haven’t even seen me, I could be a monster lol! :)