Were you traumatized by something sexual? Did it turn you into a better or worse person as you got older?

Like i had to hear my mom having sex as a kid. She would try to send us to our grandmas house but i chose to stay behind in hopes i’d cockblock. It didn't work. She still did it and i cried every night because I was that kid who didn't want anyone touching their mom. I literally had crazy tendencies that i won't speak of but I really wanted him to stay away from my mom. Luckily i didn't have to go through with any of them because my grandma was crazy for the both of us. But hey, im a better person now 😂 well not really because I always hoped my mom would catch me having sex so that she could cry like i did. Its crazy because my ex peer pressured me into having sex, public sex at that... and then it became my fetish. We got caught by everyone but her. And no matter how many people ran back to tell her, she’d go hard for me 😂 MY DAUGHTER WOULD NEVER! HOW DARE YOU LIE ON HER! Even her boyfriend at the time caught me a lot and she didn't even believe him. I loved it. I really wanted her to find out but til this day, she thinks i had sex for the first time in January 2018. But crazy thing is, i didn't even sex until August 2018 (8 years later). Oh well, it was fun while it lasted. #FeelFreeToList #TheDesiiDiaries #FeelFreeToFantasize #DirtyDesii
Were you traumatized by something sexual? Did it turn you into a better or worse person as you got older?
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I also cringe and cry anytime u hear that song withh Trey Songz because Inhad to hear my mom sex to it all the time. They fcked to the beat man 😭 Yet it also made me wanna grow up and fetishize over fckin to the beat of different songs 😂
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=y6j4BYmSgaE

And i refuse to try anal after my first ex said he wanted to hit it from the back (my puss) and he intentionally tried to force it into my ahole (with no lube or nothing). I think he tore sumn from the force 😷
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For all those who think I can't count... I said August 2018 (8 years later) because before having sex with my second ex, I had sex with my first ex back in March 2010. I had returned to celibacy/waiting til marriage after that mistake but fcked up again 8 years later
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  • I believe something traumatized sexually as a Child , i do remember hearing my Mom
    giving my Dad a hand-job But as a Child growing up i always was interested in Sex at
    a young age , I'm talking about First Grade , something wasn't right , i was too advance
    than i remember masturbating at young age. I was in Fifth Grade and masturbated in the classroom than went into the bathroom to finish myself off but i never cummed not unto i got into Sixth Grade. But i always got turned on by songs that never had no sexual meaning with them , yes it happened with me. I had few therapist told me
    i was victim of sexual abuse cause i never had actual sexual intercourse with any
    of my ex-girlfriends , just never happened with me , don't know why?

  • I did and it really did. I've spoken about it a lot. I think that you get it.

    • Yea i do

  • I was 12 when I lost my virginity to my 18 y/o babysitter. I had no idea what sex really was back then. Don't know if I'm better or worse for it.

    • Wow she shouldve went to jail for that

    • She did for a later kid.

  • For sure, but I was more curious than traumatized lol.

    • What happened

    • I guess I wanted to figure out why it worked considering my parents never gave me “the talk” lol

    • I remember accidentally scrolling across some porn when I was a kid

  • Yes I was (dm me for details) I've moved on but I think it's one of the reasons I don't attach emotions to sex

  • Yeah. I was and I’m not crazy about sex because of it.

    • Wow! Sorry that you had to go through that

    • If you ever care to share, feel free

  • I have but I can't say on here.

  • No never was

  • You're a little twisted 2D. Lol

    I don't know. Is it possible to be traumatized by rejection? When i was younger i got rejected by every girl i showed interest in or asked out. To make matters worse when some showed interest in me it's because they were setting me up for a joke.
    After enough humiliation I finally just decided to turn that part of me off and NOT be interested in any woman. And didn't ask another woman out for the next 15 years.

    • Damn thats major traumatization

    • Is it? I don't hate women or anything though, i just don't trust most of their motives. I'm fine with being friends and after knowing them for a bit i can warm up to more. But if a women comes up to me and starts flirting with me i'm ice cold to her.

  • By something sexual? 🤔 As far as I remember, no.
    Maybe there was something but I forgot. There were some funny things, but not traumatizing.

    • Well i was traumatized

    • What was traumatizing to you? (If you're comfortable sharing)

    • Follow me back, I’ve never heard my parents but I’ve definitely had some trauma.

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  • I have to say that my first time was traumatic. I was with a girl that 21 and I was 16. She wasn't on her period and I made her bleed. It made me a sexually repressed person in so far as while I may get naked quite a bit, most all of what I do it for videos. I have though become very gentle in sex, and at times now submissive. But no matter what role I take on I have always made it my absolute goal to make sure that the woman receives the most pleasure and while most guys would laugh my orgasm is not as important. For a guy that can edge himself for two weeks or more I feel that orgasms are simple things for a guy. Some days I can orgasm several times in a very short period and yet there are others where I don't feel like it. Sex to me while intimate will forever be something that I feel the woman should be pleasured the most.

    • I hate edging cause it bores me waiting on a guy to cum but damn she was a pedo

    • Right, oh I don't edge with women just able to control the flow of the sex. :) You never know, us old dodgers are like classic cars, a little TLC and our engines will roar like a beast, lol

    • And for everything there is a purpose. She has taught me the value of foreplay

  • I heard my parents have sex before and I seen them naked to and it sucks and I think I am messed up but I was also molested when I was 7 and 11 so ya there's that.

    • Sorry about the molestation

    • It’s ok

  • never had sex so i'm not the best person to answer this

    • You didn't have to hqve sex to be traumatized by someone elses experience

    • true in that case i was never traumatized by someone elses experience

  • Im sure you know this now dizzy but there's no such thing as returning to waiting till marriage.
    I wouldn't be able to unvirgin myself like changing hats.

    And I was too young to remember but i knew about sex way too early like around 6 or 8.

    My mom theorized my biological mom did the deed in front of us. Anything beyond that I don't know I hope not, but it wouldn't surprise me and if I ever found out and meet her I'd be livid.

    • Thats not true. You can return to celibacy. You just can't be a virgin again

    • That's what I meant

  • I have been traumatized by many things but thankfully never anything sexual.

    • I understand

    • Thanks @DizzyDesii.

  • Yea. I’m the same

    • Same situation?

    • Same person I guess

  • At this time, nothing has been Sexually Traumatizing for me... Yet. You've really grown up!

    • How so

    • You've become so strong with the experiences you've had in your life. I admit, you're stronger than I am! Through your troubles, you've overcome!

  • Lmao ain't nobody going to wait for marriage with a girl who been a slut. 😂That ship has sailed baby girl.

    • Im not a slut. I’ve been with 2 people. And i actually have met plenty willing to wait til marriage with me. We just didn't workout in the longrun due to other things

    • Well good for you then. They have to be fucking nuts to agree to such a thing!

  • i was on a porn site and i saw this animal ad of a monster having sex with a human. it really disturbed me... they weren't real women but it still bothered me.

    • Lmao yea those are scary ads

  • I went to a restaurant with my sister and parents once when I was like 10 and we saw a guy masturbating under the table. It was gross and when we noticed we immediately left.

    • Damn i actually would love to see that nowaday but im sorry that happened while you were young

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