I’m in love with my friends with benefits and he has left and I can’t stop crying?
My feelings have been getting much stronger towards him after it’s been 7 months down the line. i saw him 3 days ago and we had sex, i was abit drunk as i just started University and he just left me because i wasn’t co operating as much as usually since i was a bit tipsy. i said to him when he left i feel so much towards you so i can’t see you anymore. and he said Okay and just left and now has deleted me and i keep having panic attacks in my sleep thinking of him, i’m so alone.
I still have him on instagram and i messaged him a paragraph saying i’m sorry for saying that i didn’t mean it i just wanted you to fight from me and show me reassurance that you like me since you left and he’s just ignored me. I got so drunk and called him like 10 times.
I don’t know what to do shall i give him space or say sorry again? i understahd why he deleted me since i said i can't see him but i didn’t mean it. I need help and i’m so lonely i’m distancing myself from everuone. I’m only 18 and so is he. I didn’t tjink id get attatched. I wanna message him asking if he wants me to leave him alone forever but i won’t be able to bare if he actually does leave me.
I’ve suffered with Abandonment issues since a young child due to my dad and it’s not nice. I know i sound crazy but i just like hard and i only call a lot when i’m drunk...
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