Guys, why is porn better than me?

I'm 24yrs old, petite, athletic, people say I'm pretty. My boyfriend is 33yrs old. We've only had sex once a month, his choice not mine. I've done everything I could think of to try to initiate or bring things to a new level. I even went to a sex store after work to surprise him and he wasn't even interested In knowing what I brought home. I get rejected almost any time I try to initiate it. He says he just hasn't been horny. When we do have sex its like he's not into it. He watches porn the next day. Makes me feel like I'm not enough to satisfy him. Maybe bc I don't have huge boobs. We just broke up and he says he's not ready for a live in relationship. I told him I'm not ready for a guy who has more interest in a fake video that fucking the girl he "loves" right. Even after we have bbroken up he tells me he loves me all time, even though i never do and he says that he knows he's fucking up by losing me. When we talked about it before, he said it had nothing to do with me, that he thinks I'm beautiful and he just likes porn. When I get mad he just says whsts the big deal I just fuvkef you yesterday. I don't understand how I can be loyal to man that has disinterested sex once a month with me, and he would barely even toych me. I've tried everything to make things right. I haven't felt wanted, desired or loved, depsite what he says bc nothing shows that. I'm moving out today. I feel like he chose porn over me. My self esteem is shot. Did I do something wrong? Am I not pretty enough? Should I have faked porn star behavior in bed? I don't see how I could be boring, I love sex all the time. Maybe I should have gotten a boob job? Why fid he chose porn over me when he knew how much it damaged our relationship and how much pain it caused me?
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  • Let's see what you look like.

  • Are boring in bed

  • I'd take a real woman over porn any day. You are much better off with someone else.

  • maybe he doesn't get enough sex. I don't know

  • Leave his ass. If you are offering it and he's turning it down he needs to get his priorities straight. However the only other thing I can say is ask him why and maybe experiment in the realms of what he watch's (bdsm, anal, ext.)

  • Yeah sounds like he's just not in to you, in genral anymore, wants to be free again

  • wow that sucks. maybe you should move on?

  • He dosn't care bout u if he did he would have fucked u every night don't ever think its u its him and he knows it I can't relate to the porn think it dosn't even turn me on but lose this guy u deserve way better and u can get it if u try and stay with him it will only get worse u should never have to fight for sex ever thi guy has to be gay if u don't belive me look up his history

  • Look into what kinda porn he watches may there's a fetishes you missed or it could be low testosterone levels

    • Blonde huge boob milf porn is what he watches. I'm brunette, petite, tiny boobs, little bubble butt., no kids, no milf lol.

    • Ya I'm talking his secret porn

    • That was his secret porn lol he deletes all his history, I had to find it through the cache. He's plain.

  • Your boyfriend is an a -hole

    • Yeah maybe its just that simple